Can anything good come from having cancer and going to a study group? Well, I was asked by my spiritual teacher to speak to a UJA GROUP visiting from New York about this organization. They wanted someone with a fluent English. I accepted, and did so, without too much nervousness which prior to now I usually was uptight and nervous. But this organization is truly warm, accepting and does wonderful things for people with illness. Thus, I accepted readily to speak. The feedback was good, and I feel good about doing it.
I am been reading books that give me encouragement to live for each day to the fullest. None of us know the future, the when, how, why's of illness, death, a down turn in health issues. Reading continues to be a source of knowledge, optimism, happiness for me. I am finally beginning to perhaps understand more of why I developed a cancerous growth. I was so shocked through and through when it was discovered: I walk, I eat healthy, I don't smoke, etc. But stress of divorce, of failure of any sort taken seriously, of negative feelings apparently can lead to the development of cancer. And so, I continue to live around nice people, negating people who don't act nicely or dislike me. I have spent too much time trying to please others in my life. It's not that I just decided to do so. I bit by bit, have turned to the good in the world, people, situations, atmosphere which has good vibes, and have dropped what doesn't sit well w. me, albeit subconsciously at times. Every day is a gift for me, even as I peter out by afternoon, and evenings for me are really down time. But being a morning person, I get all the necessities done before most people are awake.
After another 3 month check up with my oncologist, I am so far, o'kay, despite the constant pains from the Radiation cuff disease, which limits my movements in my right shoulder, and is quite painful. Yet I function.
Thank G. for another day-to any reader, be healthy, enjoy life even with pain in your body. I speak from experience not judgement. Until next time......
