I am now onto radiation. It was unbelievable to feel almost normal in the 1 week of no chemo. But psychologically and emotionally, I was and am still down that pit, trying to climb out, or trying to keep afloat in the ocean of worry, despondence, and not quite fitting in all around me.
But one foot goes in front of the other, and I try to enjoy each opportunity that comes my way. Had my first radiation meeting explaining to me briefly what it entails. This 2nd meeting was to paint the exact areas to be radiated. I would fit in well in an Indian tribe right now. By the grace of above, because I had no lymph nodes detected due to my yearly mammogram (DO IT), I will only need 3 1/2 weeks of daily radiation rather than 6 weeks. The challenge is more how to switch my mind from negative to positive hope, and where do I fit in, when until now my whole world has been weekly trips to the hospital and then living its after effects. Now this period will be to cope with the side effects of radiation. Hard to jump to each test, and to be somewhat 'normal' to the outside world.
That's about it in a nutshell for now. I wish good health to all.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
june 8-TAXOL CHEMOTHERAPY TO STOP
HELLO:
Well, my 8th and last taxol chemo treatment was done yesterday. I imagine I will have the same fatigue feelings and feet and hand sensations, but it's another series finished. It is kind of scary, as going each week I knew that they are working on killing 'whatever' remains of cancer are there. But it was a stiff price to pay weekly, with 2 infections along the way.
Next week, I will go for a preliminary assessment for radiation at Hadassah Ein Karem. Then I will know more of what is in store for me. But there will be an interim now for my body to recuperate.
Had my breasts checked today with my surgeon-all o'kay, thank G. will come every 6 mos. and do a mammogram first to bring him.
My feelings are one of worry ( to discuss at a much later point) and utter fatigue. But hopefully, some light ahead. I must learn to live 'in the moment'. Life is right now, today. Yesterday is gone, past. Tomorrow is anyone's guess. So as much as I want to live and enjoy, I need to rest quite a bit.
Thanks again to all of who who are supporting me in your own way.
I hope that any readers are doing well in their lives.
Well, my 8th and last taxol chemo treatment was done yesterday. I imagine I will have the same fatigue feelings and feet and hand sensations, but it's another series finished. It is kind of scary, as going each week I knew that they are working on killing 'whatever' remains of cancer are there. But it was a stiff price to pay weekly, with 2 infections along the way.
Next week, I will go for a preliminary assessment for radiation at Hadassah Ein Karem. Then I will know more of what is in store for me. But there will be an interim now for my body to recuperate.
Had my breasts checked today with my surgeon-all o'kay, thank G. will come every 6 mos. and do a mammogram first to bring him.
My feelings are one of worry ( to discuss at a much later point) and utter fatigue. But hopefully, some light ahead. I must learn to live 'in the moment'. Life is right now, today. Yesterday is gone, past. Tomorrow is anyone's guess. So as much as I want to live and enjoy, I need to rest quite a bit.
Thanks again to all of who who are supporting me in your own way.
I hope that any readers are doing well in their lives.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
JUNE 6-10 ALONG THE CANCER JOURNEY
Shalom
I seem less inclined to write lately, due to my extreme fatigue and worry. After the attack on my colon, I have lived in fear of another such attack. But thank G., I am simply tired, tired, along with the tingling of fingers and toes and exhaustion. So I choose to stay home for the most part, except for my teaching and some exercise to keep alive. Thank goodness for my little dog, which forces me out for short outings as well.
I have become a real kvetch. Reading and tv occupy my time mostly. I am so thankful for any books passed my way.
Anyways, I can hardly believe that tomorrow, June 7, may be my last Taxol chemo treatment. Most people have 12 treatments, but Dr. Cherney feels 8 is best for me. Then a rest to give my body a chance to recoup, and on to radiation. I have become so accustomed to treatment each week-I won't know what or how to cope.
Let's hope that tomorrow will pass o'kay with no bad effects.
Have a good day.
chaya bat sarah bayla
I seem less inclined to write lately, due to my extreme fatigue and worry. After the attack on my colon, I have lived in fear of another such attack. But thank G., I am simply tired, tired, along with the tingling of fingers and toes and exhaustion. So I choose to stay home for the most part, except for my teaching and some exercise to keep alive. Thank goodness for my little dog, which forces me out for short outings as well.
I have become a real kvetch. Reading and tv occupy my time mostly. I am so thankful for any books passed my way.
Anyways, I can hardly believe that tomorrow, June 7, may be my last Taxol chemo treatment. Most people have 12 treatments, but Dr. Cherney feels 8 is best for me. Then a rest to give my body a chance to recoup, and on to radiation. I have become so accustomed to treatment each week-I won't know what or how to cope.
Let's hope that tomorrow will pass o'kay with no bad effects.
Have a good day.
chaya bat sarah bayla
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