APRIL 22-2011 THOUGHTS

SHALOM!

As we celebrate our spring festival, some thoughts for me to ponder and to remember. Wonderful to be part of a family, and to visit, but always so happy to return to my space, where I find that I need to rest, to read, to be quiet, to reflect, to eat, and to be thankful every second for feeling o'kay, despite the fatigue. I am dealing w. it, but going to bed as early as children do, and accepting that this is what I need to do. I am finding peace within myself, and know to throw aside any negative actions of others or rebuffs. I thrill at the sound of loving, caring people, who show me their godliness. Nature catches my eye constantly, and the miracle of its changes and blossoming.
I constantly am aware of the possible 'downs' that can and will appear at any time. I see others struggling w. impossible life situations, both physical and emotional and very very stressful, and with waning hope. I cry for each one, but am realizing that life is a constant up and down curve, and none of us, even the 'healthy' ones don't know when the hit will come their way. so in the meantime, I for one, enjoy the good part as long as I can. It takes effort, but worrying and stewing will not evade or avoid the inevitability of constant changes, both for good and for worse.

I pray for all of us in this spring season new beginnings, that we learn to love each and every moment that we are still functioning as best we can, and to put aside into 'G.d's hands' our worries.
My best wishes to all of us for recovery, peace of mind, and acceptance of what we must.
Until the next time..

APRIL 5-2011 CONTINUING TO HOPE

Shalom! With spring almost here, and the passage of time giving me hope to keep going, I am managing better and always hoping for the best as I keep my appointment check-ups along the way. I am finally more of a human being, albeit the fatigue which accompanies me, although to a lesser extent, and the foot tingling, which seems to continue for years possibly. With all of that, I can manage. I even have more optimism-the weather, the nice people I choose to be with and associate with, the angels who have been sent to be there for me, the courses I have opted to take and teach, it all adds up to a type of retirement /active life of sorts. I have taken lately to write in my blog and abundance journal more of my feelings and even some prayers of my own. I hope that any reader is coping as best she can with her challenges. I enclose now my latest prayer that I wrote for my cancer group of study.

A PRAYER FOR TODAY

I am bewitched and bewildered As I ponder my life.
I feel life's beauty and love Amidst the 'tohoo vevohoo' all over the lands.
My spirit and soul within me kvell
While my body's beating has knocked me thru' hell.
I want to live with simcha, regua, tikva and purity-
Yet my body made of dust has responded to my teumah
- Having gone thru' fire, death of a sort, despondence, depression- You name it.
I am struggling in the depths of water to stay afloat.,
to breathe in the good, to
o breathe in the love that somehow is there within all this up and down life.

DEAR UNIVERSE-
Grant me the courage to accept what I must- To ride the waves-
And the wisdom to follow my heart's will -
To live and to shine and to give and be still.
I rejoice to be born anew today and to be part of this world.
Bless all to find peace of mind, peace in body,
The ability to accept others and me 'as we are',
Each with our similarities and especially with our differences.

Good morning, world! Here I am!

Until the next time that we meet on this blog, Refuah Shlaimah to each of us!