Sunday, December 13, 2015
DEC., 2015 ALONG MY LIFE'S JOURNEY
SHALOM!
THANK G. FOR A CHANGE, I CAN RELATE A MORE POSITIVE ATTITUDE. STILL A LOT OF PAIN IN MY BACK, BUT AM CONSUMED WITH PREPARATION TO MAYBE HAVE A FORUM DISCUSSION GROUP THRU' AACI. I WILL GIVE AN OUTLINE OF A SUGGESTED PROGRAM WHICH I HAVE BEEN VERY INVOLVED WITH. I FEEL THAT THERE IS A NEED OUTSIDE OF DOCTOR'S OFFICES, AND BUSY NURSES, DOCTORS, ETC. WHO DEAL MOMENTARILY WITH YOU, BUT HAVE NO REAL TIME TO HEAR YOU, TO WORK THROUGH IDEAS, FEARS, HOPES, ETC. I WHO HAVE GONE THRU' BREAST CANCER, SURGERY= LUMPECTOMY, CHEMOTHERAPY, RADIATION, AND ALL THE PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE THAT GOES ALONG WITH IT AND LONG AFTERWARDS, KNOW THAT I HAVE BEEN OF HELP TO TWO PRIVATE PEOPLE WHOM I KNOW. THUS PERHAPS I CAN USE MY TEACHING/GUIDING EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE TO CONDUCT SUCH A FORUM. IT MAY BE THAT VERY FEW WOULD SIGN UP FOR SUCH A MEETING GROUND, AND THAT MAY BE. BUT I AM GIVING IT A TRY. IT HAS GIVEN ME A PURPOSE IN LIFE FOR THE MOMENT
THANK G. FOR A CHANGE, I CAN RELATE A MORE POSITIVE ATTITUDE. STILL A LOT OF PAIN IN MY BACK, BUT AM CONSUMED WITH PREPARATION TO MAYBE HAVE A FORUM DISCUSSION GROUP THRU' AACI. I WILL GIVE AN OUTLINE OF A SUGGESTED PROGRAM WHICH I HAVE BEEN VERY INVOLVED WITH. I FEEL THAT THERE IS A NEED OUTSIDE OF DOCTOR'S OFFICES, AND BUSY NURSES, DOCTORS, ETC. WHO DEAL MOMENTARILY WITH YOU, BUT HAVE NO REAL TIME TO HEAR YOU, TO WORK THROUGH IDEAS, FEARS, HOPES, ETC. I WHO HAVE GONE THRU' BREAST CANCER, SURGERY= LUMPECTOMY, CHEMOTHERAPY, RADIATION, AND ALL THE PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE THAT GOES ALONG WITH IT AND LONG AFTERWARDS, KNOW THAT I HAVE BEEN OF HELP TO TWO PRIVATE PEOPLE WHOM I KNOW. THUS PERHAPS I CAN USE MY TEACHING/GUIDING EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE TO CONDUCT SUCH A FORUM. IT MAY BE THAT VERY FEW WOULD SIGN UP FOR SUCH A MEETING GROUND, AND THAT MAY BE. BUT I AM GIVING IT A TRY. IT HAS GIVEN ME A PURPOSE IN LIFE FOR THE MOMENT
DEC. 14-2015 ALONG MY LIFE'S JOURNEY
SHALOM!
Believe it or not, I started this blog last week, and lost all that I had written. Such a fluke!
Anyways, on this 8th and last day of Chanukah this year, I am so happy to feel rather 'normal', whatever that means to me. Perhaps I am learning to know the signs in my body of extreme fatigue and deal with it, by going to bed 'with the birds' when I need to, or my eating healthy but very substantial meals when I need to. And of course, thank G. for letting me be healthy from serious ailment at the moment. The hills and valleys of life are there for each of us, and perhaps I am learning to go with the flow. I know that it can't always feel great or even good, and I must adjust, as all humans must. But to know to say thank you for this moment, for today, for all the things that I cherish (which may be totally different than another one's favorite needs and wants). So I am wishing any readers and myself the strength to take what we must and cherish the gifts given to us on a platter.
Best wishes to each and every one of you.
CHW
Believe it or not, I started this blog last week, and lost all that I had written. Such a fluke!
Anyways, on this 8th and last day of Chanukah this year, I am so happy to feel rather 'normal', whatever that means to me. Perhaps I am learning to know the signs in my body of extreme fatigue and deal with it, by going to bed 'with the birds' when I need to, or my eating healthy but very substantial meals when I need to. And of course, thank G. for letting me be healthy from serious ailment at the moment. The hills and valleys of life are there for each of us, and perhaps I am learning to go with the flow. I know that it can't always feel great or even good, and I must adjust, as all humans must. But to know to say thank you for this moment, for today, for all the things that I cherish (which may be totally different than another one's favorite needs and wants). So I am wishing any readers and myself the strength to take what we must and cherish the gifts given to us on a platter.
Best wishes to each and every one of you.
CHW
Wednesday, November 18, 2015
NOV. 18-15 MY 'PORT' AND I PART
SHALOM!
I have never pushed to remove the port on my chest. I always was afraid that when and if the cancer came back, I would need a new one, as my veins could not take the normal prodding of a needle trying to find its good spot to enter. But my oncology Dr. felt it was time, altho' he told me that no more can we be positively sure that after xx number of years, that a cancer would not re-occur.
I went in for the surgery, fearful, panicking. As I knew they had to put part of me or all of me to sleep, I felt that I needed someone with me. MY oldest grandaughter and I arranged to meet in the hospital where she works. She told the nurse that when I had my surgery, it was she that slept on the floor beside my bed and now she was here for what we hope is the end of the story, the removal of the port. Since I just went thru' several yearly tests, I knew how kind and polite and nice a nurse or technician can be, and too many times be the complete opposite in attitude, which in no way relaxes the patient. All I can say is that yesterday, I met the kindest sweetest competent nurse, who was truly there for the doctor and for me, and I bless her.
If only people would realize that a SMILE or a KIND word can make such a difference. I wish for any of you readers that you meet up with kind, caring individuals both in life and in your battle forward.
G. bless until next month.
I have never pushed to remove the port on my chest. I always was afraid that when and if the cancer came back, I would need a new one, as my veins could not take the normal prodding of a needle trying to find its good spot to enter. But my oncology Dr. felt it was time, altho' he told me that no more can we be positively sure that after xx number of years, that a cancer would not re-occur.
I went in for the surgery, fearful, panicking. As I knew they had to put part of me or all of me to sleep, I felt that I needed someone with me. MY oldest grandaughter and I arranged to meet in the hospital where she works. She told the nurse that when I had my surgery, it was she that slept on the floor beside my bed and now she was here for what we hope is the end of the story, the removal of the port. Since I just went thru' several yearly tests, I knew how kind and polite and nice a nurse or technician can be, and too many times be the complete opposite in attitude, which in no way relaxes the patient. All I can say is that yesterday, I met the kindest sweetest competent nurse, who was truly there for the doctor and for me, and I bless her.
If only people would realize that a SMILE or a KIND word can make such a difference. I wish for any of you readers that you meet up with kind, caring individuals both in life and in your battle forward.
G. bless until next month.
Sunday, October 25, 2015
BACK ONCE AGAIN AFTER SOME TIME-SEPT. 8-15
Hi!
somehow, the time flies by. I got caught up with health issues, and decisions to leave the country to vacation, and eventually took the plunge and did.
thankfully, all went well health wise. But there are always, ups and downs in one's body, in one's thoughts, in one's optimism or pessimism. We are but mere human beings, and our bodies grow and wither and hurt and shine as G/nature decides. So I do my best to keep fit, to eat properly, and to think positive. I think that for those of us who have faced serious illness, the fear is always there-before every examination, every instance that we 'feel' something wrong with us. I am trying to teach myself to 'go with the flow'. If necessary, check it out. But hang in there.
to any reader who still logs in after a 2 month absence, I wish you a good year coming up =good health/maintaining your status and looking for the good even if you get challenges (which for sure come).
All the best until next month
I will try to keep this blog up, if not for you, then for myself.
somehow, the time flies by. I got caught up with health issues, and decisions to leave the country to vacation, and eventually took the plunge and did.
thankfully, all went well health wise. But there are always, ups and downs in one's body, in one's thoughts, in one's optimism or pessimism. We are but mere human beings, and our bodies grow and wither and hurt and shine as G/nature decides. So I do my best to keep fit, to eat properly, and to think positive. I think that for those of us who have faced serious illness, the fear is always there-before every examination, every instance that we 'feel' something wrong with us. I am trying to teach myself to 'go with the flow'. If necessary, check it out. But hang in there.
to any reader who still logs in after a 2 month absence, I wish you a good year coming up =good health/maintaining your status and looking for the good even if you get challenges (which for sure come).
All the best until next month
I will try to keep this blog up, if not for you, then for myself.
TIME MOVES FASTER THAN I DO...OCT. 2015
Shalom once again:
I can't believe it is so long since I entered a monthly write-up into my blog. Lots of happy occasions and also some very stressful unpleasant happenings. Health-wise, it seems that I have scoliosis of the back, which I may have had for many years, but the pain this past period has been very severe, and had to seek a heavy duty pain killer to manage. But for each ailment that is not cancer, I say
"As long as it isn't cancer, I will manage." Easy said, and less easy to do, but I must or accept defeat and that will get me nowhere.
Wherever any reader is out there, I wish you the strength both physically and emotionally to weather what comes your way. There are many valleys and hills to traverse during this short time here on earth. So let's count our blessings wherever we find them and continue on.
With my war wishes until the next time,
Yours
I can't believe it is so long since I entered a monthly write-up into my blog. Lots of happy occasions and also some very stressful unpleasant happenings. Health-wise, it seems that I have scoliosis of the back, which I may have had for many years, but the pain this past period has been very severe, and had to seek a heavy duty pain killer to manage. But for each ailment that is not cancer, I say
"As long as it isn't cancer, I will manage." Easy said, and less easy to do, but I must or accept defeat and that will get me nowhere.
Wherever any reader is out there, I wish you the strength both physically and emotionally to weather what comes your way. There are many valleys and hills to traverse during this short time here on earth. So let's count our blessings wherever we find them and continue on.
With my war wishes until the next time,
Yours
Wednesday, July 8, 2015
july 9-2015 TIME MARCHES ALONG.....
SHALOM TO ANY READER AND TO MYSELF:
THANK G. AT THE MOMENT, I AM NOT A CANCER WRITER, FOR THE TIME BEING.
MY FOCUS SEEMS TO BE ON WHAT PHYSICAL AND MENTAL STATE I AM IN. I CALL EACH TRYING PERIOD A 'CHALLENGE', BUT BUT THAT IS REALLY MORE OPTIMISTIC THAN WHAT I FEEL WITH EACH NEW TRIAL. BUT CONTINUING TO LIVE AND ESPECIALLY AS WE AGE, ALWAYS BRINGS SOME PAINS, SOME TRIALS, AND WORRIES. PERHAPS, AND PROBABLY, AFTER EXPERIENCING CANCER, AND SEEING OTHERS ACTUALLY DYING FROM THIS ILLNESS, MAKES ONE MUCH MORE AWARE OF TIME MARCHING ON AND DOING ITS THING, WHICH INVOLVES THE BODY WEARING DOWN.
AND SO, ON THIS SUMMER DAY, I WISH ALL OF US A HEALTHY OUTLOOK, STRENGTH TO COPE WITH WHATEVER LIFE HANDS US, AND THE ABILITY TO SOAK OUT EACH GOOD MOMENT IN LIFE.
UNTIL NEXT MONTH, G. WILLING,
YOURS
THANK G. AT THE MOMENT, I AM NOT A CANCER WRITER, FOR THE TIME BEING.
MY FOCUS SEEMS TO BE ON WHAT PHYSICAL AND MENTAL STATE I AM IN. I CALL EACH TRYING PERIOD A 'CHALLENGE', BUT BUT THAT IS REALLY MORE OPTIMISTIC THAN WHAT I FEEL WITH EACH NEW TRIAL. BUT CONTINUING TO LIVE AND ESPECIALLY AS WE AGE, ALWAYS BRINGS SOME PAINS, SOME TRIALS, AND WORRIES. PERHAPS, AND PROBABLY, AFTER EXPERIENCING CANCER, AND SEEING OTHERS ACTUALLY DYING FROM THIS ILLNESS, MAKES ONE MUCH MORE AWARE OF TIME MARCHING ON AND DOING ITS THING, WHICH INVOLVES THE BODY WEARING DOWN.
AND SO, ON THIS SUMMER DAY, I WISH ALL OF US A HEALTHY OUTLOOK, STRENGTH TO COPE WITH WHATEVER LIFE HANDS US, AND THE ABILITY TO SOAK OUT EACH GOOD MOMENT IN LIFE.
UNTIL NEXT MONTH, G. WILLING,
YOURS
Wednesday, June 3, 2015
JUNE 3, 2015 ALONG LIFE'S JOURNEY.......
SHALOM:
WELL, ANOTHER MONTH WITH ITS CHALLENGES AND TRIALS, AND UPS AND DOWNS. THANK G. TO LIVE AND SURVIVE IT ALL, WITH SOME WEAR AND TEAR FOR SURE. BOTTOM LINE, THOUGH, FOR ME, IS TO FORCE MYSELF TO REMEMBER THAT LIFE WILL CONSTANTLY GIVE ME CHALLENGES, DIFFICULT ONES, BUT TO KEEP IN MIND THAT HOPEFULLY, ALL THINGS DO PASS, AND HOPE THAT THERE IS STILL LIFE AND POSITIVE HAPPENINGS YET TO COME.
I AM WISHING YOU, ANY READER, STRENGTH TO KEEP ON WITH AS MUCH OPTIMISM AND YOU AND I CAN MUSTER AND TO KEEP GOING AS POSITIVELY AS YOU CAN.
G. WILLING, UNTIL THE BEGINNING OF JULY, WHEN WE WILL MEET AGAIN, I HOPE.
YOURS
WELL, ANOTHER MONTH WITH ITS CHALLENGES AND TRIALS, AND UPS AND DOWNS. THANK G. TO LIVE AND SURVIVE IT ALL, WITH SOME WEAR AND TEAR FOR SURE. BOTTOM LINE, THOUGH, FOR ME, IS TO FORCE MYSELF TO REMEMBER THAT LIFE WILL CONSTANTLY GIVE ME CHALLENGES, DIFFICULT ONES, BUT TO KEEP IN MIND THAT HOPEFULLY, ALL THINGS DO PASS, AND HOPE THAT THERE IS STILL LIFE AND POSITIVE HAPPENINGS YET TO COME.
I AM WISHING YOU, ANY READER, STRENGTH TO KEEP ON WITH AS MUCH OPTIMISM AND YOU AND I CAN MUSTER AND TO KEEP GOING AS POSITIVELY AS YOU CAN.
G. WILLING, UNTIL THE BEGINNING OF JULY, WHEN WE WILL MEET AGAIN, I HOPE.
YOURS
Friday, May 1, 2015
A BIG SKIP IN WRITING, NOW MAY-2015
SHALOM:
SOME TIME HAS ELAPSED SINCE LAST WRITING. I WENT THRU' MANY PHYSICAL ACHES AND PAINS, AND LACK OF ENERGY AND SOME DEPRESSION HELD ME BACK.
THANK G. FOR MEDICINES AND DOCTORS!
I KNOW TO REMEMBER THAT 'AS LONG AS IT ISN'T CANCER, I CAN LIVE WITH IT'. THAT HAS BEEN MY MOTTO, BUT WHEN IT'S ACTUAL DISTRESS AND PAINS AND FATIGUE, IT'S ANOTHER MATTER, WHATEVER THE SOURCE. AND SO, I CAN ONLY ENCOURAGE YOU AND ME TO THINK OF THE GLASS HALF FULL. AS YOU WILL NOTICE, I NOW HAVE 2 ENTRIES FOR MAY AS I THOUGHT I HAD LOST THIS INTIAL WRITING. SO BOTH HALVES SHOULD BE TOGETHER. WISHING YOU ALL THE BEST-UNTIL NEXT TIME, G. WILLING.
SOME TIME HAS ELAPSED SINCE LAST WRITING. I WENT THRU' MANY PHYSICAL ACHES AND PAINS, AND LACK OF ENERGY AND SOME DEPRESSION HELD ME BACK.
THANK G. FOR MEDICINES AND DOCTORS!
I KNOW TO REMEMBER THAT 'AS LONG AS IT ISN'T CANCER, I CAN LIVE WITH IT'. THAT HAS BEEN MY MOTTO, BUT WHEN IT'S ACTUAL DISTRESS AND PAINS AND FATIGUE, IT'S ANOTHER MATTER, WHATEVER THE SOURCE. AND SO, I CAN ONLY ENCOURAGE YOU AND ME TO THINK OF THE GLASS HALF FULL. AS YOU WILL NOTICE, I NOW HAVE 2 ENTRIES FOR MAY AS I THOUGHT I HAD LOST THIS INTIAL WRITING. SO BOTH HALVES SHOULD BE TOGETHER. WISHING YOU ALL THE BEST-UNTIL NEXT TIME, G. WILLING.
from MARCH TO MAY, NO ENTRIES
SHALOM!
I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I DIDN'T FEEL ENERGETIC ENOUGH TO WRITE ENTRIES FOR SO LONG. BUT I WAS WITNESSING MANY DOWNS IN MY HEALTH, THANK G. NOT DUE TO CANCER AND I WAS QUITE 'WIPED OUT'. I NEED TO REMEMBER TO KEEP THINKING OF MY CUP HALF FULL, AND NOT OF THE HALF EMPTY oR 3/4 EMPTY. EASY TO SAY, BUT DIFFICULT TO UPHOLD. AND SO ON THIS FIRST DAY OF MAY, 2015, I WISH ALL OF US A HEALTHY/HEALTHIER MONTH FILLED WITH SUN OUTSIDE AND SUN IN OUR HEARTS, TO BE ABLE TO ACCEPT WHAT WE MUST, AND CARRY ON.
WISHING YOU ALL THE BEST OF A HEALTHY/HEALTHIER MONTH.
FONDLY,
CHW
I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I DIDN'T FEEL ENERGETIC ENOUGH TO WRITE ENTRIES FOR SO LONG. BUT I WAS WITNESSING MANY DOWNS IN MY HEALTH, THANK G. NOT DUE TO CANCER AND I WAS QUITE 'WIPED OUT'. I NEED TO REMEMBER TO KEEP THINKING OF MY CUP HALF FULL, AND NOT OF THE HALF EMPTY oR 3/4 EMPTY. EASY TO SAY, BUT DIFFICULT TO UPHOLD. AND SO ON THIS FIRST DAY OF MAY, 2015, I WISH ALL OF US A HEALTHY/HEALTHIER MONTH FILLED WITH SUN OUTSIDE AND SUN IN OUR HEARTS, TO BE ABLE TO ACCEPT WHAT WE MUST, AND CARRY ON.
WISHING YOU ALL THE BEST OF A HEALTHY/HEALTHIER MONTH.
FONDLY,
CHW
Sunday, February 8, 2015
February, 2015 finally here again to 'talk'
Shalom! I have a new computer and couldn't get into my cancer blog until now. A catch up is what I shall do now.
Thank G. for the moment I show no signs of renewed cancer. But the body and mind, at least mine, shows both physically and mentally, signs of aging, of forgetting, of somehow being going downhill. It is frightening, and one learns to 'go with the flow' and manage as best you can. For me, it is terrifying to see this drop in capabilities , both mentally and physically . But I am taking one step at a time, slowing down, as this I simply must do to keep going. I am reminding myself of all the good that I have and being thankful for each day anew.
to any reader of this blog-'keep your chin up' as it is said. not always easy to do, but to lie down in the mire doesn't seem like a better idea.
Here's wishing to you, and to myself, courage to keep on fighting the battle.
Best wishes until next time.
Thank G. for the moment I show no signs of renewed cancer. But the body and mind, at least mine, shows both physically and mentally, signs of aging, of forgetting, of somehow being going downhill. It is frightening, and one learns to 'go with the flow' and manage as best you can. For me, it is terrifying to see this drop in capabilities , both mentally and physically . But I am taking one step at a time, slowing down, as this I simply must do to keep going. I am reminding myself of all the good that I have and being thankful for each day anew.
to any reader of this blog-'keep your chin up' as it is said. not always easy to do, but to lie down in the mire doesn't seem like a better idea.
Here's wishing to you, and to myself, courage to keep on fighting the battle.
Best wishes until next time.
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