DEC. 30-2011 WHAT A DIFFERENCE A DAY MAKES

HELLO ONCE AGAIN:

WELL, A MONTH HAS PASSED SINCE I LAST WROTE. SOMEHOW I DON'T FIND THE TIME TO SIT AND WRITE IN MY BLOG. WHEN I DO WRITE, I WRITE MY OWN POEMS AND PRAYERS IN BOTH HEBREW AND ENGLISH, AND WORK ON PROCESSING QUESTIONS FROM MY BIBLE STUDY COURSE.

BUT I FEEL I MUST RETURN TO THIS BLOG PERIODICALLY TO KEEP ABREAST OF MYSELF. THE CHRONIC UTICARA, WHICH I HAVE, GAVE ME 3 MONTHS OF GREAT DISCOMFORT. HOPEFULLY, IT IS ALMOST SOLVED, THRU' MANY DIFFERENT DRUGS. BUT IT APPEARS THAT MY IMMUNE SYSTEM IS VERY LOW, ATTRIBUTED BY MY ALLERGY SPECIALISTS AS A REACTION TO THE CHEMOTHERAPY AND RADIATION AND ALL THAT THIS ENTAILED. I KEEP TRYING TO EAT HEALTHY IMMUNE BOOSTING FOODS, WHICH I DID ANYWAYS ALL ALONG. MY FATIGUE APPARENTLY IS PARTLY CAUSED BY THE LOW FUNCTIONING IMMUNE SOURCES. IT SEEMS LIKE A VICIOUS CIRCLE.

AFTER MY RECENT MAMMOGRAM WHICH THANK G. SHOWED ALL O'KAY, I HAD AN ULTRA SOUND WHICH AT THIS POINT IS A CONSTANT FOR ME. THE RADIOLOGIST FOUND SOMETHING 'SUSPICIOUS' IN THE SAME BREAST AND TALKED ABOUT A BIOPSY. I WAS TOTALLY STUNNED!
BUT HE WENT BACK TO THE COMPUTER IMAGING OF MY OPERATION TIME IN NOV. 09, SAW THAT THEN THEY HAD SEEN A FIBREDENOMA. PERHAPS THIS WAS THE SAME THING? HAD IT GROWN? HE DECIDED TO LET ME WAIT 3 MONTHS AND THEN DO THE PROCEDURE AGAIN, AND THEN DO A BIOPSY IF HE SAW GROWTH CHANGES.

BOTH MY GENERAL DOCTOR, AND MY ONCOLOGIST, AND MY SURGEON, FELT WE NEED TO LOOK FURTHER NOW. SO I AM GETTING A SECOND OPINION NEXT WEEK AT 'HALLA' CENTRE, AND THEN IF THE TOP RADIOLOGIST THERE FELT IT IS NEEDED, HE WILL DO A BIOPSY ON THE SPOT.

ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT ALL THE FEARS, WORRIES, ARE BACK IN FULL FORCE. I DIDN'T EVEN WANT TO PUT OUT THE 3,000 SHEKELS APPROX. AS MY KUPAH IS NOT COVERED. AFTER A BIT OF SOUL SEARCHING, I DECIDED I AM WORTH IT. SO I SAY TO MYSELF AGAIN-LIVE NOW THE BEST YOU CAN. I KNOW THAT EVENTUALLY, AND NOT TOO SOON AN EVENTUAL, I WILL LEAVE THIS PLACE, BUT I WANT TO LIVE AND SEE MORE GOOD THINGS IN THE FAMILY AND AROUND ME.

SOME ILLNESSES COME AND GO. BUT IN OTHERS, LIKE HEART PROBLEMS, CANCER, ETC., THE FEAR LINGERS ON WHETHER SURFACING OR NOT.
I PRAY FOR ALL OF US IN THIS SHIP, FOR COURAGE TO DEAL WITH IT ALL, AND HOPE ABOVE ALL.
G. BLESS
UNTIL THE NEXT TIME.