THE FALL OF MY LIFE AND NOV.'S FALL

SHALOM ONCE AGAIN!

I COULDN'T REMEMBER HOW TO LOG IN, AND THUS MY DELAY IN WRITING. A SENIOR MOMENT, AMONG OTHERS!
THANK G. THIS MONTH HAS BEEN FOCUSING ON WALKING WITH A WALKER AND MORE TO A CANE, AND GOING UP AND DOWN STEPS. FEAR MUST BE ACCOMPANIED BY A DETERMINATION TO DEAL WITH IT! AS ALL PEOPLE TRYING TO OVERCOME AND LIVE WITH A DIFFICULT PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL TURMOIL, IT IS O'KAY TO FEAR, BUT FEEL THE FEAR BUT DO IT ANYWAYS! THAT WAS THE TITLE OF MY FIRST BOOK BY SUSAN JEFFERS: 'FEEL THE FEAR BUT DO IT ANYWAYS". IT REALLY HELPED ME YEARS AGO, AND ALTHO' I FEAR AFTER MY FALL AND HIP OPERATION, I WILL NOT LET MYSELF JUST SIT AND VEGETATE. AND SO, I AM CAREFUL AND THOUGHTFUL, WHICH WE ALL MUST BE, BUT FIGHTING THE FIGHT TO GO FORWARD. NOW IF ONLY I COULD HANDLE THE OTHER SIDE ISSUES ACCOMPANYING MY FALL.
BUT LIFE IS A CONSTANT CHALLENGE TO ALL OF US, IN ONE FORM OR ANOTHER.

SO, NOW THAT DECEMBER IS CLOSE UPON US, WITH THE RAIN, SNOW AND WEATHER DIFFICULTIES, THANK G. WE ARE HERE TO HOPEFULLY SEE ANOTHER WINTER, ENJOY WHAT WE CAN, AS WE ARE STILL ON THE TRAIN OF LIFE. LET'S NOT GIVE UP! FEEL THE CLOSENESS OF YOUR FAMILY, YOUR GOOD FRIENDS, OF LIFE ITSELF!

I WISH ALL OF YOU READERS A HEALTHY DECEMBER FILLED WITH WARM THOUGHTS OF ALL THE GOOD YOU AND I HAVE IN OUR LIFE, ALONGSIDE LIFE'S STRESSFUL CHALLENGES.

UNTIL NEXT MONTH HOPEFULLY,
I SAY BYE/AU REVOIR/SHALOM

CHW

Along my winding complicated month of octber.s journey

Shalom to any of my readers,
I never believed that i would be of safe mind and body to write once again. Thank g.d i am here to talk to you and to myself. In a nutshell, i have faced such an ordeal and not always with optimism that i always encourage others to have. On the day of my grandaughters wedding, i set to exercise, to facilitate and mentor a ca cer group. To be short, i had  an ita mini stroke   fell on the road , luckily wasnt run over. Wonderful strangers dragged me off the road ,into a taxi and on to hospital with fractured hip in three places. Spent 3 weeks and then into rehabilitation, and am now somewhat recuperating at my sons home. This truly was one of those low valleys that i found mhyself in. All i could think of was atleast i am still alive. I have this day, this moment to appreciate life, to appreciate the many good hard working  doctors ,nurses,  kindness all around   despite our cries and smells and constant needs.  I know that none of us knows when it will be our turn to get off the train of life that we are all riding along.
And so i pray for all of us on our journey of life to take each moment to be thankful to appreciate our loved ones, our friends, our colleagues, to appreciate each and every stranger who risks for us who cares for us. And finally , my readers, help me to remember to smile, things could be worse yet. Let us bless life and savour each precious momentt. G. Bless you all to be more courageous than i have been.  But where there is life, there is hope. I undertake to be more optimistic and always appreciative of life.
With  my best wishes until.next month g. Willing.

SEPT. 2-16 LIFE'S JOURNEY

HOW EASY IT IS TO WRITE WHEN ALL IS WELL, AND TO TRY TO GIVE 'CHIZUK', ENCOURAGEMENT TO OTHERS WHO ARE STRUGGLING. BUT WHEN IT HITS HOME EITHER PHYSICALLY OR EMOTIONALLY/MENTALLY, AND YOU SEE OTHERS AROUND YOU, YOUR PEERS, YOUR RELATIVES, DEALING WITH REAL HARD CORE ILLNESS AND ADAPTATIONS, IT IS ANOTHER THING. SO ALL I CAN SAY IS: 'THERE BUT FOR THE GRACE OF G.' GO I.

 WE ARE ALL ON THE SAME TRAIN, AND EACH OF US AT SOME POINT WILL LEAVE THIS TRAIN OF LIFE. HOPEFULLY, WE WILL HAVE MADE SOME CONTRIBUTION TO THE WORLD, HAVE GIVEN AND RECEIVED FRIENDSHIP AND LOVE. BUT NONE OF US IS EXEMPT FROM HAVING TO LEAVE THE TRAIN OF LIFE. HOW ABSOLUTELY DIFFICULT TO FATHOM AND TO ACCEPT THAT WE ARE MERE MORTALS, AND NO MATTER HOW IMPORTANT WE WERE TO OURSELVES AND TO SOME OTHERS, THE TRAIN OF LIFE KEEPS CHUGGING ALONG AND DROPPING SOME OF ITS PASSENGERS ALONG THE WAY.

I CAN ONLY WISH AND PRAY FOR EACH OF US TO SOMEHOW FIND  A WAY TO ENJOY THE MOMENT, THE DAY, THE HOUR. WE MAY HAVE PAIN, BOTH PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL, YET AS LONG AS WE ARE STILL ON THIS EARTH, TO FIND AND ENJOY THE PLEASURES OF 'BEING'. JUST BEING, AND TO SAY: THANK YOU FOR THIS.
ON THIS SOMBER NOTE, I HEARTILY WISH ALL OF US STRENGTH TO CARRY ON AND TO LIVE AND LIVE THE MOMENT. UNTIL THE NEXT MONTH, G. WILLING,
I LEAVE YOU WITH HOPE THAT WE WILL MEET AT THIS BLOG AGAIN NEXT MONTH.

JULY, 2016 ALONG MY LIFE'S JOURNEY

HELLO OUT THERE:

I AM ACTUALLY EMBARRASSED TO ENTER THIS MONTH'S EXPERIENCE. THANK G. NO CANCER, THANK G. NO HEART ATTACK, ALTHO ALL THE SYMPTOMS WERE THERE. THANK G. ALL TESTS SHOWED NO PHYSICAL REASON FOR EXTREME AGITATION IN MY MIND AND BODY AND A TRUE SCARE. I SUSPECT STRONGLY THAT IT WAS AN ACCUMULATION OF EXTREME ANGER AND FRUSTRATION AND INABILITY TO COPE WITH SOME OF WHAT I EXPERIENCED OVER A COUPLE OF WEEKS. AND SO NOW, I WILL TRY TO FOCUS ON RELAXING, MEDITATING, 'TAKING IT EASY', AND AVOID THINGS THAT ARE VERY STRESSFUL FOR ME. EASIER SAID THAN DONE, ISN'T IT? LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL, WE ONLY HAVE THIS ONE LIFE, AND YET OUR EMOTIONS AND FEELINGS TAKE OVER . WORRY AND AGITATION ARE ABUNDANT. I AM SEEKING, AS PERHAPS YOU ARE, WAYS TO ACCEPT WHAT I MUST, AND KIND OF 'GO WITH THE FLOW', AGAIN EASIER SAID THAN DONE.

AND SO , AS JULY DRAWS TO A CLOSE, I WISH ALL OF US A HEALTHY ATTITUDE AND ABILITY TO COPE WITH WHAT WE MUST, WHETHER PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY. 'THIS TOO SHALL PASS!'

I HOPE TO WRITE AGAIN TOWARDS THE END OF AUGUST.
YOUR FRIEND IN SPIRIT
CHW

JUNE 29-2016 ALONG LIFE'S JOURNEY

SHALOMֱ

I HAVE ALREADY WRITTEN EARLIER IN JUNE, TO MAKE UP FOR LOST WRITING OF MAY, BUT WANT TO KEEP IN TRACK AND SAY HELLO AND HOW ARE YOUֱ

AS I WRITE, I GO BACK AND FORTH  IN MY MIND OF WHAT IS MISSING IN MY LIFE, WHAT IS NOT RIGHT, WHAT DOES NOT FEEL RIGHTֱֱ. BUT THEN I TRY TO CATCH MYSELF AND START FOCUSING ON JUST WHAT IS RIGHT AND GOOD. THAT , I BELIEVE, IS WHAT WE, WHO ARE GOING THROUGH, OR HAVE GONE THROUGH, MUST FOCUS ON. WHAT GOOD DO WE SEE AND WITNESS, DESPITE THE EVIL, THE PAIN, THE HARDSHIP OF BEING ILL, OF GETTING OLDER, LOSING SOME OF OUR STRENGTH, OUR CAPACITY TO 'DO IT ALL'.

AND SO, A SUMMER IS UPON US, I AM SAYING TO MYSELF AND TO ANY READERS. YES, ALL IS NOT RIGHT. BUT LET'S FOCUS ON WHAT IS RIGHT, WHAT IS GOOD TODAY, RIGHT NOW IN OUR LIVES. WE HAVE TODAY, HOPEFULLY, TO BE, TO CONTRIBUTE, TO BEFRIEND, TO ENJOYֱ

WISHING US ALL STRENGTH AND STAMINA TO FACE LIFE AND ILLNESS AND DISAPPOINTMENTS WITH COURAGE, AND TO TRY TO DRIVE ON THE POSITIVE SIDE OF OUR LIVESֱ

WITH MY WARM WISHES ALWAYS,
CHW

JUNE 13-16 ALONG LIFE'S JOURNEY

SHALOM!
 MY MAY ENTRY SOMEHOW GOT DELETED, AND MY APOLOGIES. IT WAS REALLY FULL!

EACH MONTH, EACH DAY, EACH HOUR HAS ITS OWN CHALLENGES AND OPPORTUNITIES. THE  FACT THAT I CONDUCT A FORUM ON LIVING WITH AND MEETING THE CHALLENGES OF SOMEONE WHO IS/WAS ILL CERTAINLY KEEPS ME IN TOUCH WITH WHAT I NEED TO DO AND HOW TO LIVE, DESPITE THE UPS AND DOWNS, THE HILLS AND VALLEYS THAT WE MEET UP WITH IN LIFE. AND SO, AS SUMMER APPROACHES, I WISH THAT ANY READERS OUT THERE WILL ENDEAVOR TO FOCUS ON THE POSITIVE, KNOWING THAT WE ALL HAVE THE DOWNS, THE VALLEYS TO GO THROUGH AS WELL.

WE HAVE TODAY, NOW! ONLY THAT IS GUARANTEED AS WE ARE IN IT. NO ONE KNOWS WHAT WILL BE THE NEXT MOMENT, THE NEXT DAY. SO LET US TRY TO ENJOY WHAT AND WHEREVER WE CAN AND DEAL WITH WHAT WE MUST ALONG OUR LIFE'S JOURNEY.

WISHING US ALL THE BEST,
CHW

APRIL 27-16 SPRING/SUMMER/PESACH ALL ROLLED INTO ONE STEADY MOVEMENT

HI OUT THERE!

 HOW MUCH THERE IS TO BE THANKFUL FOR-WARM WEATHER, HOT WEATHER, THE COLOR OF THE SKIES, THE EXQUISITE FLOWERS, THE SOUND OF THE BIRDS, AND HOPE TO LIVE ANOTHER DAY, ANOTHER HOLIDAY. HOPE MEANS REMEMBERING THAT TODAY IS WHAT I HAVE AT THIS MOMENT, TO ENJOY, TO REST IF I NEED TO, AND I DO, TO ENJOY WHATEVER AND WHOSE COMPANY LENDS ITSELF FOR THE MOMENT.
 AT THE SAME TIME, PEOPLE, FAMILY, FRIENDS, ARE DYING AND THIS TOO IS PART OF LIFE. HARD TO TAKE, TO UNDERSTAND, BUT IT'S THERE ANYWAYS. SO GRAB THE MOMENT, AND SAVOR WHAT FEELS RIGHT. RIGHT FOR ME, RIGHT FOR YOU. WE ARE ALL DIFFERENT-AND TO ACCEPT OURSELVES, OUR WEAKNESSES AND OUR STRENGTHS, IT IS GREAT IF WE CAN COME TO TERMS WITH IT ALL. NOT EASY, NOT FAIR, BUT C'EST LA VIE.
AND SO, AS APRIL DRAWS TO A CLOSE, I WISH YOU, ME, AND ALL MANKIND GOOD/BETTER HEALTH, HOPE TO CONTINUE ON AND COUNT OUR BLESSINGS AS THEY ARE AT THE MOMENT.

HOPE TO WRITE AGAIN IN MAY WITH BETTER INSIGHTS PERHAPS, AND ALWAYS WITH GRATITUDE.

APRIL 3, 2016 THANK G. LIFE GOES ON....

HELLO ONCE AGAIN:

THANK G. TO BE ABLE TO WRITE WITH , FOR A CHANGE, NO MAJOR OR MINOR ILL APPARENT SHOWING. I HAVE DECIDED THAT EACH MINOR AILMENT, WHICH STILL CAN BRING SO MUCH PAIN AND DISTRESS, IS THERE TO TEACH ME TO REALLY HAVE EMPATHY FOR OTHERS WHO ARE IN REAL DISTRESS. WE TEND TO FORGET JUST HOW DIFFICULT ILLNESS CAN BE AND JUST HOW STRESSFUL IT CAN BE LET ALONE PAINFUL AND DEPLETING.

AND SO, TODAY, I AM SO THANKFUL TO BE WHERE I AM AT, AND WANT TO WISH ANY READER MUCH LUCK AND SELF-LOVING AND CARING TO GET YOU THRU' WHATEVER PLACE YOU ARE At RIGHT NOW. THIS DOES NOT MEAN THAT I DON'T HAVE ANY AILMENTS-MY IMMUNE SYSTEM CONTINUES TO BE OUT OF KILTER, LEAVING ME CONTINUALLY WITH CHRONIC URTICARA. BUT THANK G. FOR MEDICINES!

I FIND THAT THE SMALL CANCER GROUP THAT I AM LEADING, HELPS ME AS MUCH AS IT GIVES ME PLEASURE TO HELP OTHERS.
WISHING ALL OF US- THE STRENGTH AND COURAGE TO KEEP SMILING AND PUSHING FORWARDS ON OUR INDIVIDUAL STRUGGLES AND JOURNEY OF LIFE.
WITH LOVE,
CHW

MARCH 8-2016 AS TIME MARCHES ON.....

SHALOM!

I HAD PLANNED TO ENTER MY BLOG END OF FEB. BUT HELD OFF UNTIL NOW. THANK G. TO BE ALIVE TO KEEP WRITING SOME THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS. I AM VERY THANKFUL THAT THUS FAR, NO SIGNS OF CANCER RE-OCCURRING,

BUT CLEARLY AGING OF MY BODY WITH ACHES AND PAINS, NON RELATED. DESPITE PHYSIOTHERAPY, EXERCISE CLASS, WALKING OUTSIDE, THE AGING PROCESS CONTINUES, AND I AM REMINDING MYSELF DAILY TO BE THANKFUL TO BE ALIVE, AND TO APPRECIATE EACH DAY-NATURE, THE SOUNDS, THE HAPPENINGS (HOPEFULLY GOOD ONES), THE HAPPINESS AT BEING CONTENT MORE AND MORE TO BE IN MY SPOT/HOME. I TAKE NOTHING FOR GRANTED. I SEE MORE AND MORE FRIENDS FALLING APART AND THE ACTUALITY OF DEATH GUARANTEED FOR EACH OF US IS THERE, WIDELY APPARENT! I COULD GET CAUGHT UP WITH DOOM AND GLOOM.

 SO I WORK ON MYSELF TO SAY, THANK YOU FOR TODAY, FOR WHAT I HAVE TO SEE AND LIVE TODAY. NONE OF US HAS A GUARANTEE OF WHAT THE NEXT MINUTE OR HOUR OR DAY WILL BRING.

SO, I BLESS ALL OF US, THAT WE BE COGNIZANT OF EACH MAGICAL DAY-WITH ALL ITS BEAUTY AND UNFORTUNATELY ITS UGLINESS WHICH REARS ITS HEAD TOO OFTEN.
HOPEFULLY, WE WILL CONNECT AGAIN END OF MARCH, TOWARDS APRIL.

BEST WISHES TO ALL!
BESOROT TOVOT!
CHW

LIFE'S CONSTANT CHANGES JAN. 31-2016

WELL, ANOTHER MONTH HAS COME AND ALMOST GONE. LIFE CONTINUES TO CHALLENGE ON MANY LEVELS, PHYSICALLY, EMOTIONALLY, MENTALLY AND YET, I SAY THANK G.
 CHALLENGES ARE CONSTANTLY POPPING UP AND SOMEHOW, WE MUST GO WITH THE FLOW. I AM VERY THANKFUL FOR THIS MOMENT, FOR WHAT I DO HAVE AND WHERE I AM. ONE CAN ALWAYS WISH FOR IMPROVEMENT, BUT I KNOW THAT I HAVE, AS WE ALL DO, THE HILLS AND VALLEYS ARE GUARANTEED FOR EVERYONE. I AM WORKING ON KEEPING MOOD AND HOPE UP EVEN DURING THE DOWNS OF VALLEYS.

TO ANY READER, G. BLESS-AND WISHING US ALL A HEALTHY FEBRUARY. UNTIL NEXT TIME.....