Shalom once again to my blog and readers:
Now to catch myself up on what is going on. It is slowly sinking in to me that this constant heavy fatigue is going to be part of me for even up to a year. My oncologist gave me an article for doctors that really showed me that with all of my medical background, this is what is, and not a sign of further cancer necessarily.Therefore, live w. it, and accept the need to lie down all the time between activities.
Secondly, the pain of shoulder and arm seems to be from the biopsy when they cut into the lymph nodes to check for the spread of cancer. Physio therapy has done me no good thus far. I am going next week to another specialist elsewhere to see what he can do. But one learns to live with the pain and discomfort.
Other than all of the above, I am mindful of each good moment and happening in life. It hurts me terribly to see other women ill with cancer or dying of it right now. I pray for all of us-statistics show that 4,000 women get hit with cancer in Israel every year-we must do our part to eat healthy, to exercise, to keep our bodies and our minds active and near positive, friendly people.
To any readers who know me personally, I thank you for your encouragement and patience and friendship.
It is November, time marches on, and I thank the universe for granting me more time here on earth. May I use it well.
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Thursday, October 7, 2010
OCT. 7-10 ALONG THE CANCER JOURNEY
SHALOM!
IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I LAST WROTE. AT THIS POINT, I STILL HAVE NO ANSWER RE GENETIC FURTHER TESTING. THINGS MOVE VERY SLOWLY IT SEEMS, AND WITH MANY MANY ILL PATIENTS, ONE HAS TO LEARN PATIENCE.
I HAVE BEEN SPENDING MY TIME BEING CONSTANTLY MINDFUL OF WHATEVER GOOD MOMENTS/HOURS/TIMES SPENT COME MY WAY. I AM SO THANKFUL TO BE ALIVE RIGHT NOW, AS I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S COMING NEXT.
SINCE MY RADIATION WHICH FINISHED MID JULY, I HAVE BEEN BATTLING PAINS IN MY ARM, SHOULDER, AREA OF THE SIDE OPERATED ON AND RADIATED ON. IT HAS CAUSED ME LOSS OF POWER TO DO VARIOUS TASKS, BUT MOSTLY PAIN. THAT PLUS THE FATIGUE WHICH JUST WON'T LEAVE ME, KEEP ME FRUSTRATED AND YES, STILL WORRIED. SO TO CONTRAST THAT WORRY AND PAIN, I AM DOUBLY THANKFUL FOR ALL GOOD LITTLE EVENTS. I FIND MYSELF TOO HARD ON MYSELF AND KEEP PUSHING MYSELF. I NEED TO LEARN TO LET IT FLOW, AND NOT EXPECT SO MUCH FROM MYSELF. THE PAMPERING FROM WHATEVER SOURCE COMES MY WAY IS SO APPRECIATED.
I FORTUNATELY FINALLY FOUND 2 DIFFERENT PLACES TO LEARN MORE ABOUT MYSELF, MY BODY, MY FEELINGS. ONE IS FROM A CANCER GROUP TO HELP US ADJUSTING TO IT ALL, AND THE OTHER IS FROM A DOCTOR WHO HELPS US UNDERSTAND THE CONNECTION OF BODY AND SPIRIT AND OUR NEEDS.
WELL, ENOUGH RAMBLING ON FOR TODAY. I WISH ANY OF YOU OUT THERE WHO ARE HURTING OR WORRYING, STRENGTH TO ENJOY WHATEVER YOU CAN. THERE ARE ALWAYS THE UPS AND DOWNS FOR ALL OF US.
AS A NEW JEWISH MONTH BEGINS, AND SHABAT APPROACHES, I WISH YOU ALL A HEALTHY MONTH AND AN ENJOYABLE SHABAT.
UNTIL THE NEXT TIME....
chaya bat sarah bayla
IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I LAST WROTE. AT THIS POINT, I STILL HAVE NO ANSWER RE GENETIC FURTHER TESTING. THINGS MOVE VERY SLOWLY IT SEEMS, AND WITH MANY MANY ILL PATIENTS, ONE HAS TO LEARN PATIENCE.
I HAVE BEEN SPENDING MY TIME BEING CONSTANTLY MINDFUL OF WHATEVER GOOD MOMENTS/HOURS/TIMES SPENT COME MY WAY. I AM SO THANKFUL TO BE ALIVE RIGHT NOW, AS I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S COMING NEXT.
SINCE MY RADIATION WHICH FINISHED MID JULY, I HAVE BEEN BATTLING PAINS IN MY ARM, SHOULDER, AREA OF THE SIDE OPERATED ON AND RADIATED ON. IT HAS CAUSED ME LOSS OF POWER TO DO VARIOUS TASKS, BUT MOSTLY PAIN. THAT PLUS THE FATIGUE WHICH JUST WON'T LEAVE ME, KEEP ME FRUSTRATED AND YES, STILL WORRIED. SO TO CONTRAST THAT WORRY AND PAIN, I AM DOUBLY THANKFUL FOR ALL GOOD LITTLE EVENTS. I FIND MYSELF TOO HARD ON MYSELF AND KEEP PUSHING MYSELF. I NEED TO LEARN TO LET IT FLOW, AND NOT EXPECT SO MUCH FROM MYSELF. THE PAMPERING FROM WHATEVER SOURCE COMES MY WAY IS SO APPRECIATED.
I FORTUNATELY FINALLY FOUND 2 DIFFERENT PLACES TO LEARN MORE ABOUT MYSELF, MY BODY, MY FEELINGS. ONE IS FROM A CANCER GROUP TO HELP US ADJUSTING TO IT ALL, AND THE OTHER IS FROM A DOCTOR WHO HELPS US UNDERSTAND THE CONNECTION OF BODY AND SPIRIT AND OUR NEEDS.
WELL, ENOUGH RAMBLING ON FOR TODAY. I WISH ANY OF YOU OUT THERE WHO ARE HURTING OR WORRYING, STRENGTH TO ENJOY WHATEVER YOU CAN. THERE ARE ALWAYS THE UPS AND DOWNS FOR ALL OF US.
AS A NEW JEWISH MONTH BEGINS, AND SHABAT APPROACHES, I WISH YOU ALL A HEALTHY MONTH AND AN ENJOYABLE SHABAT.
UNTIL THE NEXT TIME....
chaya bat sarah bayla
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