FEB. 6-2013 LIFE AND ITS CHALLENGES

SHALOM!
THANK G. MY PHYSICAL TESTS ARE COMING BACK O'KAY. EACH ONE HAS ITS FEARS ACCOMPANYING IT, BUT AM ALWAYS THANKFUL. I KNOW I OFTEN THINK THAT IF I HAVE NO OPEN SIGNS OF CANCER, THAT LIFE IS PERFECT, BUT LIFE'S CHALLENGES KEEP COMING. I HAVE HAD SEVERAL OF THESE 'CHALLENGES' LATELY, AND AS STRESSFUL AS THEY ARE , I CALL THEM MY 'KAPAROT' AND SAY TO MYSELF AND TO OTHERS: 'AS LONG AS IT IS NOT CANCER, I CAN LIVE WITH IT'. WELL, I AM BEING GIVEN MANY KAPAROT, AND HOPE THAT I CAN GROW IN MY EMUNAH TO TRUST THAT SUCH IS LIFE -WE ARE UP, WE ARE DOWN, AND THAT IS PART OF LIFE'S EXPERIENCES. I AM SO PLEASED THAT I AM AND CAN BE OF SOME SMALL HELP TO OTHERS WHO ARE SUFFERING. I KNOW THAT A LISTENING CARING EAR IS SOMETIMES AS MUCH AS AN ACTUAL MEDICINE.
UNTIL THE NEXT WRITING, I TRY AT LEAST ONCE A MONTH TO WRITE HERE, BUT DAILY I KEEP UP WITH MY DIARY OF ABUNDANCE AND MY OWN PRAYERS.
G. BLESS ANY READERS AND ALL OF US.

JAN. 11-13 AND LIFE GOES ON W. THANKS

SHALOM!
WITH EVER MINDFULNESS OF HOW LUCKY I AM TO WAKE UP 'NORMAL' FOR ME RIGHT NOW, TO SAVOUR AND APPRECIATE EACH BEAUTY OF NATURE, OF CONDUCTING LIFE SOMEWHAT NORMALLY. HOWEVER AWARE THAT EACH MEDICAL TEST, EACH SYMPTOM REMINDS ME CONSTANTLY OF THE FRAGILITY OF MY LIFE. THIS CANCER HAS TAUGHT ME TO REMEMBER WELL THE PLUSES IN MY LIFE AND TO TRY TO LIVE EACH DAY WITH MEANING. THANK YOU, LORD, UNIVERSE, FOR ESCORTING ME ON THIS JOURNEY. I WISH ANY OF YOU READERS, GOOD IMPROVING HEALTH AND STRENGTH TO COPE-STRENGTH FROM YOUR FAITH, YOUR FAMILY, YOUR FRIENDS, FROM YOURSELF! UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN!

DEC. 30, 2012 AS TIME GOES BY.....

HI!
WELL, ANOTHER MONTH HAS PASSED, AND 2012 IS ALMOST OVER. THANK G. I HAVE HAD A RESPITE OF TIME TO BEGIN TO FEEL MORE 'NORMAL'. SO FAR, THE TESTS COME BACK O'KAY, AND I AM EVER SO MINDFUL THAT AT ANY TIME, I COULD GET ANOTHER SCARE. SO I LIVE EACH DAY SO THANKFUL OF WHERE I AM, AT THIS MOMENT IN TIME. I EVEN AM HELPING ANOTHER CANCER PATIENT ON HER JOURNEY. I PRAY FOR ALL OF US WHO WILL NEVER TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED AGAIN. G. BLESS, UNTIL WE MEET BY THIS MAILING IN 2013.

OCT. 24-2012 AN UPDATE FOR MY MEMORY

SHALOM!
WELL, SINCE I AM FAR FROM BEING A COMPUTER EXPERT, I GOT STUCK AND UNABLE TO GET INTO MY BLOG TO WRITE, ALTHO' I TRIED SEVERAL TIMES.
FROM END OF AUG. UNTIL NOW THE END OF OCT. I HAVE HAD SO MANY REGULAR CHECK-UPS AND CANCER CHECK-UPS, AS WELL AS A TRIP TO THE DENTIST. I AM SO GLAD TO SAY THAT THANK G. SO FAR, SO GOOD.
MY ONE LIFE-LONG BATTLE, AND SO MUCH MORE SO, IS MY UTTER FATIGUE WHICH I ALWAYS HAD SOMEWHAT, BUT AFTER MY CANCER EXPERIENCE, AND EVEN NOW, 2 YEARS LATER IS STILL SO PROMINENT IN MY LIFE. A LOT OF IT IS BECAUSE MY IMMUNE SYSTEM, LOW BEFORE THE CANCER, WAS VERY AFFECTED AFTER THE CHEMO AND RADIATION, AS WELL AS BEING ON A VERY HIGH, POSSIBLE ORGAN DAMAGING DRUG FOR A FULL YEAR, FOR THE SKIN CONDITION WHICH CONTROLLED MY LIFE AND LACK OF LIFE. WITHIN A FEW WEEKS NOW, THIS TREATMENT WILL CEASE, AND I CAN ONLY HOPE THAT THE PROBLEM WILL NOT RE-OCCUR.

I AM MINDFUL TO BE THANKFUL EVERY DAY, EVERY MOMENT. I CONTINUE TO GO TO MY CANCER GROUP STUDY ON BIBLE STUDY AND LIFE ISSUES, BUT ALWAYS FALL ASLEEP THERE NO MATTER HOW RESTED I TRY TO COME THERE. I AM AWARE TO LIMIT MY ACTIVITIES SOMEWHAT AND TRY TO BUILD UP STRENGTH, WHICH STILL EVADES ME. BUT I KEEP UP WITH EXERCISE, DIET, AND DOING THE ACTIVITIES THAT I CAN MANAGE, LIKE TEACHING PART-TIME, VOLUNTEERING PART TIME, SOCIAL EVENTS SOMEWHAT LESS.

I WISH ALL OF US WHO ARE IN TREATMENT OR POST TREATMENT BUT STILL CARRYING THE ONUS OF WORRY, HOPE FOR EACH GOOD NEW DAY.
UNTIL THE NEXT TIME=
BYE

SEPT. 26-2012 THANKFUL EVERY MOMENT/SECOND

SHALOM TO MY BLOG;

FINALLY, A VERY CONCENTRATED DRUG IS HELPING WITH MY 2 YRS. OF ATTACK ON MY BODY DUE TO MY LOWER IMMUNE SYSTEM AFTER CHEMO AND RADIATION. THANK G. TO FEEL LIKE A NORMAL PERSON. ALL CHECK-UPS LATELY ARE GOOD, AND I AM EVER SO THANKFUL EACH SECOND. A SCARE RECENTLY IMMEDIATELY PLUNGED ME INTO SUCH FEAR. IT HELPS ME REALIZE WHAT OTHERS ARE GOING THRU' AND IT IS EASY TO 'PREACH' TO OTHERS, BUT TO FEEL THAT DREAD, THAT FEAR IS ANOTHER STORY. SO I AM WISHING ALL OF US BETTER HEALTH SITUATIONS, THE STRENGTH TO COPE WITH WHERE WE ARE IN OUR TIME LINE OF LIFE.
UNTIL ANOTHER TIME,
YOURS,
CHW

SEPT. 6, 2012 A MONTH PLUS LATER....

SHALOM!
I can't believe so much time has gone by. I took a vacation for the month of August, to relax, to read, to visit, to just 'be' in my home town. I went loaded with my various medicines, but resisted going for second opinion consultations there. I needed just to be me, and to soak in all the love of friends and family. Thank G. I was relatively fine there. Now I am back with various medical checks to see if the coast is clear. :) :) I am so thankful for each new day, each new moment, and for feeling human again. I know that just as surely as I am doing 'well' now, hard times of one kind or another will come. But for now, for the moment, I have a peaceful mindset. I wish any readers good health-whatever may come, we shall somehow deal with it, but our help in taking care of ourselves by proper eating, resting, relaxing,enjoying will play a big part in our overall state.
I wish us all a healthy good year ahead and will keep my cancer blog open at least once a month.
Until the next time,........my best wishes.