APRIL 5-2013 MY UPDATE FOR MYSELF ALONG MY JOURNEY OF LIFE

SHALOM!
I HAVE GONE OVER THE MONTHLY TIME TO WRITE, DUE TO PESACH AND BUSINESS OF LIFE. I AM WRITING BEFORE MY CHECK-UP NEXT WEEK, WITH THE HOPE THAT ALL WILL BE CLEAR AND FINE FOR NOW ONCE AGAIN. 3 YEARS DOWN THE ROAD, AND FINALLY, I CAN SAY, THAT THE UTTER FATIGUE HAS LESSENED. THANK G. I DO TIRE SO EASILY, BUT CAN EVEN VENTURE AN EVENING OUT MORE OFTEN. I AM SO VERY MINDFUL AND THANKFUL OF WHAT I HAVE, AND WHAT CHANCE I MAY STILL HAVE TO BE A PRODUCTIVE PERSON HERE ON EARTH. PERHAPS MY ILLNESS IS TO TEACH BE TO REALLY BE AWARE, BOTH PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY AND SPIRITUALLY OF WHAT A GIFT WE HAVE TO LIVE LIFE AND TO CONTRIBUTE IN SOME SMALL WAY TO THIS WONDROUS WORLD. THERE IS SO MUCH EVIL AROUND AND SICKNESS AND DARKNESS THAT WE MUST SEEK OUT AND ENCOURAGE ALL THE GOODLINESS THAT WE FIND AND CAN POSSIBLY CREATE. I AM WISHING ANY READER OF MY BLOG A RECOVERY, AS MUCH AS CAN BE, AND POSITIVE THOUGHTS.
G. BLESS ALL OF US. UNTIL THE NEXT TIME-SHALOM.

FEB. 28-2013 MY MONTHLY CHECK-IN

MY MIND REMINDS ME TOWARDS THE END OF EACH MONTH TO WRITE AN UPDATE. I AM CONSTANTLY WRITING MY FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS IN POETRY AND PRAYER IN ANOTHER FORMAT, BUT FEEL THE NEED TO KEEP UP THIS LEDGER AS WELL. THANK G. EACH MEDICAL CHECK-UP SEEMS TO INDICATE THAT ALL IS WELL, CANCER -WISE. BUT I AM QUICKLY REMINDED BY EITHER BY ONCOLOGIST OR MY SURGEON, THAT NOW 3 YEARS LATER, NOT TO BE FOOLED. THERE IS NO CUT-OFF DATE FOR BEING 'SAFE', LIKE 5 YRS. SEEMED TO BE. JUST AS CANCER STRUCK ON A NORMAL YEARSLY MAMMOGRAM DAY, SO IT CAN RETURN. AND SO I KEEP ON LIVING, PANICKING WHEN MY BODY SEEMS TO BE CAVING IN, BUT RELENTLESSLY FIGHTING ON, AND AT THE SAME TIME, BEING SO VERY MINDFUL WITH THANKS FOR 'UP TO THIS MOMENT' RELIEF. I WISH ALL READERS TO WORK ON BEING UPBEAT, HELPING OURSELVES BE POSITIVE AND DOING POSITIVE ACTIONS OF CARING FOR OURSELVES.
OUR LIVES HAVE THE CONSTANT UPS AND DOWNS, AND NOTHING IS PERMANENT, AND CERTAINLY NOT HUMAN BEINGS. SO G. BLESS ALL OF US.
UNTIL NEXT MONTH-
LOVE

FEB. 6-2013 LIFE AND ITS CHALLENGES

SHALOM!
THANK G. MY PHYSICAL TESTS ARE COMING BACK O'KAY. EACH ONE HAS ITS FEARS ACCOMPANYING IT, BUT AM ALWAYS THANKFUL. I KNOW I OFTEN THINK THAT IF I HAVE NO OPEN SIGNS OF CANCER, THAT LIFE IS PERFECT, BUT LIFE'S CHALLENGES KEEP COMING. I HAVE HAD SEVERAL OF THESE 'CHALLENGES' LATELY, AND AS STRESSFUL AS THEY ARE , I CALL THEM MY 'KAPAROT' AND SAY TO MYSELF AND TO OTHERS: 'AS LONG AS IT IS NOT CANCER, I CAN LIVE WITH IT'. WELL, I AM BEING GIVEN MANY KAPAROT, AND HOPE THAT I CAN GROW IN MY EMUNAH TO TRUST THAT SUCH IS LIFE -WE ARE UP, WE ARE DOWN, AND THAT IS PART OF LIFE'S EXPERIENCES. I AM SO PLEASED THAT I AM AND CAN BE OF SOME SMALL HELP TO OTHERS WHO ARE SUFFERING. I KNOW THAT A LISTENING CARING EAR IS SOMETIMES AS MUCH AS AN ACTUAL MEDICINE.
UNTIL THE NEXT WRITING, I TRY AT LEAST ONCE A MONTH TO WRITE HERE, BUT DAILY I KEEP UP WITH MY DIARY OF ABUNDANCE AND MY OWN PRAYERS.
G. BLESS ANY READERS AND ALL OF US.

JAN. 11-13 AND LIFE GOES ON W. THANKS

SHALOM!
WITH EVER MINDFULNESS OF HOW LUCKY I AM TO WAKE UP 'NORMAL' FOR ME RIGHT NOW, TO SAVOUR AND APPRECIATE EACH BEAUTY OF NATURE, OF CONDUCTING LIFE SOMEWHAT NORMALLY. HOWEVER AWARE THAT EACH MEDICAL TEST, EACH SYMPTOM REMINDS ME CONSTANTLY OF THE FRAGILITY OF MY LIFE. THIS CANCER HAS TAUGHT ME TO REMEMBER WELL THE PLUSES IN MY LIFE AND TO TRY TO LIVE EACH DAY WITH MEANING. THANK YOU, LORD, UNIVERSE, FOR ESCORTING ME ON THIS JOURNEY. I WISH ANY OF YOU READERS, GOOD IMPROVING HEALTH AND STRENGTH TO COPE-STRENGTH FROM YOUR FAITH, YOUR FAMILY, YOUR FRIENDS, FROM YOURSELF! UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN!

DEC. 30, 2012 AS TIME GOES BY.....

HI!
WELL, ANOTHER MONTH HAS PASSED, AND 2012 IS ALMOST OVER. THANK G. I HAVE HAD A RESPITE OF TIME TO BEGIN TO FEEL MORE 'NORMAL'. SO FAR, THE TESTS COME BACK O'KAY, AND I AM EVER SO MINDFUL THAT AT ANY TIME, I COULD GET ANOTHER SCARE. SO I LIVE EACH DAY SO THANKFUL OF WHERE I AM, AT THIS MOMENT IN TIME. I EVEN AM HELPING ANOTHER CANCER PATIENT ON HER JOURNEY. I PRAY FOR ALL OF US WHO WILL NEVER TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED AGAIN. G. BLESS, UNTIL WE MEET BY THIS MAILING IN 2013.

OCT. 24-2012 AN UPDATE FOR MY MEMORY

SHALOM!
WELL, SINCE I AM FAR FROM BEING A COMPUTER EXPERT, I GOT STUCK AND UNABLE TO GET INTO MY BLOG TO WRITE, ALTHO' I TRIED SEVERAL TIMES.
FROM END OF AUG. UNTIL NOW THE END OF OCT. I HAVE HAD SO MANY REGULAR CHECK-UPS AND CANCER CHECK-UPS, AS WELL AS A TRIP TO THE DENTIST. I AM SO GLAD TO SAY THAT THANK G. SO FAR, SO GOOD.
MY ONE LIFE-LONG BATTLE, AND SO MUCH MORE SO, IS MY UTTER FATIGUE WHICH I ALWAYS HAD SOMEWHAT, BUT AFTER MY CANCER EXPERIENCE, AND EVEN NOW, 2 YEARS LATER IS STILL SO PROMINENT IN MY LIFE. A LOT OF IT IS BECAUSE MY IMMUNE SYSTEM, LOW BEFORE THE CANCER, WAS VERY AFFECTED AFTER THE CHEMO AND RADIATION, AS WELL AS BEING ON A VERY HIGH, POSSIBLE ORGAN DAMAGING DRUG FOR A FULL YEAR, FOR THE SKIN CONDITION WHICH CONTROLLED MY LIFE AND LACK OF LIFE. WITHIN A FEW WEEKS NOW, THIS TREATMENT WILL CEASE, AND I CAN ONLY HOPE THAT THE PROBLEM WILL NOT RE-OCCUR.

I AM MINDFUL TO BE THANKFUL EVERY DAY, EVERY MOMENT. I CONTINUE TO GO TO MY CANCER GROUP STUDY ON BIBLE STUDY AND LIFE ISSUES, BUT ALWAYS FALL ASLEEP THERE NO MATTER HOW RESTED I TRY TO COME THERE. I AM AWARE TO LIMIT MY ACTIVITIES SOMEWHAT AND TRY TO BUILD UP STRENGTH, WHICH STILL EVADES ME. BUT I KEEP UP WITH EXERCISE, DIET, AND DOING THE ACTIVITIES THAT I CAN MANAGE, LIKE TEACHING PART-TIME, VOLUNTEERING PART TIME, SOCIAL EVENTS SOMEWHAT LESS.

I WISH ALL OF US WHO ARE IN TREATMENT OR POST TREATMENT BUT STILL CARRYING THE ONUS OF WORRY, HOPE FOR EACH GOOD NEW DAY.
UNTIL THE NEXT TIME=
BYE