WITH THE PASSAGE OF TIME-JAN. 2014

THERE WAS A PROGRAM CALLED 'THIS WAS THE WEEK THAT WAS'. WELL, THE MONTH OF DEC. WAS THE MONTH THAT WAS. IT WAS A ROUGH PAINFUL MONTH OF THINGS GOING WRONG W. MY BODY-AND NOT CANCER CONNECTED. FIRST, A HEAVY BRONCHITIS, FOLLOWED BY A PINCHED NERVE. AND THEN, AFTER A BRIEF INTERMISSION, I FELL OUT OF MY BED WHILE READING AND NODDING OFF, AND I HAVE PAID DEARLY IN PAIN, INABILITY TO STAND, SIT, BEND, DO. BUT NOW, AS WITH ALL AILMENTS HOPEFULLY, TIME MOVES ON, AND EVENTUALLY, YOU GET OVER THESE PAINS, KNOWING THAT, WHENEVER, WHEREVER, THESE HILLS AND VALLEYS WITH RE-APPA

AUG. 14-2014 WE MEET ONCE AGAIN AFTER SUCH A LONG INTERVAL

SHALOM:
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S SO LONG SINCE I LAST ENTERED. AWAY FOR 3 WEEKS, AND PREPARATIONS AND JET LAG RECOVERY KEPT ME BUSY AND INEFFECTIVE TO SIT AND TO WRITE.
AT THIS POINT, HEALTHWISE, I CAN ONLY SAY THAT THANK G. CANCER FREE AT THE MOMENT. SUFFERING CONSTANTLY, SOME TIMES WITH GREAT DISCOMFORT, OTHER TIMES, SO-SO, FROM MY LOW IMMUNE SYSTEM KNOCKED BY THE CHEMO AND RADIATION, SO THAT I BREAK OUT WITH HIVES, SWOLLEN LIPS, EYES ETC. THANK G. FOR A PILL TO RELIEVE , BUT THE FATIGUE THEN KICKS IN AND I AM EXHAUSTED. BUT, I MUST SAY, THAT I HAVE LEARNED TO LIVE WITH IT. KEEP GOING, EXCEPT WHEN I DO SHOW IT ON MY OUTSIDE APPEARANCE, THEN I STAY WITHIN FOR A BIT OF TIME. PERHAPS, THIS IS ONE IMPORTANT LESSON FOR ME, AMONG OTHERS, THAT NO MATTER WHAT IS WRONG, YOU KEEP GOING. I TRY TO STAY AFLOAT, AND EVEN TO SWIM AND SOAR! THIS IS THANKS TO MY WONDERFUL FRIENDS AND FAMILY WHO CARE, THANKS TO THE CREATOR, THANKS TO MY NOT GIVING UP SHIP AND STAYING DOWN IN THE DUMPS. IT IS NOT EASY. WHEN I READ HOW THE WONDERFUL ACTOR, HUMORIST ROBIN ADAMS WAS SO DEPRESSED TO COMMIT SUICIDE, I AM IN TOTAL SHOCK. HE BROUGHT SO MUCH TO THE WORLD, AND YET SUFFERED SO MUCH THAT HE COMMITTED SUICIDE. IT SHOWS ME HOW MUCH WE MUST WORK AT HELPING OURSELVES, WHEREVER WE CAN GET THE STRENGTH AND HELP WE NEED, FROM PROFESSIONALS AT TIMES, AND FROM OUR SOUL MATES WHEREVER THEY ARE. I PRAY FOR ALL OF US TO KEEP STRONG AND TO LEARN TO WEATHER OUR SITUATION AS BEST WE CAN. G. BLESS! UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, HOPEFULLY ONCE A MONTH AGAIN.

MAY 27-2014 LIFE'S JOURNEY

SHALOM!
ANOTHER MONTH GOES BY, AND THANK G. NO SIGNS OF CANCER. I AM THANKFUL EACH AND EVERY MOMENT. THE FATIGUE THAT I LIVE WITH, WITHOUT STOP, IS DIFFICULT AND FRUSTRATING, BUT YOU CAN'T HAVE IT ALL, AS THEY SAY.
TO ANY READERS, I WISH YOU COURAGE AND THE STRENGTH TO COPE WITH WHAT YOU MUST-WE EACH HAVE OUR HILLS AND VALLEYS TO GO THROUGH, AND ALL OF US HOPE TO STAY ON THIS PLANET A LITTLE LONGER OR SHOULD I SAY-A LOT LONGER.
BE WELL UNTIL NEXT MONTH.

MAY 2-2014 AS TIME MARCHES ON

SHALOM!
I MISSED WRITING IN APRIL. FIRST OF ALL, THANK G. THAT SO FAR, NO CANCER IS EVIDENT. BUT MY BODY HAS TAKEN MANY UPS AND DOWNS, AND THUS MY MIND ALSO HAS GONE QUITE DOWN IN SPIRIT. THUS, I JUST KEPT TRYING TO KEEP MY HEAD ABOVE WATER AND TO STAY AFLOAT.
SINCE THIS IS MY CANCER BLOG, I WON'T GO INTO THE OTHER BOTHERSOME, FATIGUEING, DEPRESSING EVENTS IN MY BODY, IN  MY LIFE.
I AM ALWAYS THANKFUL TO GET A GOOD REPORT WHEN VISITING MY SPECIALISTS, BUT THEY ARE CONCERNED WITH ONE THING ONLY-TO DETECT A SIGN OF CANCER. THE REST IS LEFT FOR ME TO WORK ITSELF OUT.
SO FOR ANY OF YOU OUT THERE READING THIS, I WISH YOU MUCH STRENGTH ALONG YOUR ROAD OF RECOVERY.
UNTIL NEXT MONTH-I AM WISHING ALL OF US GOOD HEALTH AND PEACE OF MIN.

MARCH 21-2014 A MONTH MISSED OF WRITING

SHALOM!
IT SEEMS THAT I HAVE MISSED A MONTH AT LEAST OF ENTRY. I SOMEHOW GOT CAUGHT UP WITH TRYING TO WEATHER WHATEVER DIFFICULTIES MY BODY IS GIVING ME, AND NEVER FINDING OR TAKING THE TIME TO WRITE. IT'S EASY TO COUNSEL OTHERS AND SAY TO NEVER GIVE UP OR TO TO 'KEEP THE FAITH'. SOMEHOW MY BODY IS CONTROLLING ME, AND NOT VICE VERSA. THE CHEMO SAVED MY LIFE, BUT REALLY DOWNED MY IMMUNE SYSTEM, AND SO I SUFFFER ALMOST DAILY FORM ALL SORTS OF PHYSICAL AND MENTAL LIMITATIONS AND DISCOMFORT. SO MUCH SO, THAT I JUST TRY TO KEEP MY HEAD ABOVE WATER, AND JUST DIDN'T WRITE.
AND LIFE KEEPS ON WITH ALL SORTS OF TRIALS AND HOPEFULLY, THANK G. WITH GOOD MOMENTS AS WELL.
AND SO, I WISH ANY READER WHO BOTHERS WITH THIS GOOD LUCK IN YOUR STRUGGLES. LIFE IS TRULY A CHALLENGE IN ITS MANY DIMENSIONS.

WISHING MYSELF AND ALL OUT THERE GOOD MOMENTS TO RELISH.

MONTH OF DECEMBER, 2013-AND BEYOND-JAN. 2014

A WHOLE MONTH HAS GONE BY WITHOUT WRITING. MY BODY, WITHOUT THE KNOWLEDGE OF ANY NEW CANCER AT THIS POINT, WENT THRU' A MOST TRYING, PAINFUL MONTH OF BRONCHITIS, PINCHED NERVE, FALLING OUT OF BED , AND LIVING W. EXTREME PAIN AND DISABILITY.
BUT  TIME MOVES ON-AND EVENTUALLY, HOPEFULLY, WE MEND AND CONTINUE ON, KNOWING THAT THE HILLS AND VALLEYS OF LIFE WILL CONTINUE. EVERY DAY, EVERY MINUTE IS A GIFT-AND WE SOMEHOW, TAKE THE WONDERFUL BEAUTIES OF LIFE, AND MUST ACCEPT ALSO, THE MORE DIFFICULT, PAINFUL SCENARIOS.

AND SO, IN MID JANUARY, 2014, I WISH ANY READER 'STRENGTH' TO ACCEPT WHAT WE MUST, AND COURAGE TO KEEP ON GOING!
BE WELL AND G. BLESS ALL OF US. UNTIL NEXT TIME.....

NOV. 29-2013 ALONG MY JOURNEY OF LIFE

SHALOM ONCE AGAIN:

ANOTHER MONTH HAS GONE BY, AND I AM SO AWARE OF MY THANKFULNESS FOR EVERY MOMENT HERE ON THIS EARTH, FOR FEELING RELATIVELY NORMAL, DESPITE MY CONTINUED CONSTANT FATIGUE. I AM AWARE OF THE HILLS AND VALLEYS THAT I GO THROUGH, NOT ONLY PHYSICALLY, BUT IN HUMAN RELATIONSHIPS AND IN LIFE. AND WITH ALL THAT, I AM CONSTANTLY SAYING 'THANK G.', AND AM EVER MINDFUL OF OTHERS WHO ARE SUFFERING.
I HOPE THAT MY WRITING ISN'T TOO POLLYANIC FOR THE READER. BUT THIS BLOG IS FOR ME, AND IF ANYONE READS IT, I HOPE THAT HE/SHE CAN GET SOMETHING OUT OF IT.
THANKSGIVING, CHANUKAH, SHABAT, TIMES TO BE THANKFUL FOR WHAT WE DO HAVE RIGHT NOW. I PRAY FOR ALL OF US TO HAVE THE STRENGTH AND WISDOM TO LIVE IN THE NOW, AND DO WHAT WE CAN TO KEEP AN UPPER HAND OR MIND MOST OF THE TIME.
I HOPE TO BE ABLE TO BE SO UPBEAT AT THE END OF NEXT MONTH, G. WILLING.
FOR NOW,
G. BLESS.
C.H.W.