from MARCH TO MAY, NO ENTRIES

SHALOM!
I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I DIDN'T FEEL ENERGETIC ENOUGH TO WRITE ENTRIES FOR SO LONG. BUT I WAS WITNESSING MANY DOWNS IN MY HEALTH, THANK G. NOT DUE TO CANCER  AND I WAS QUITE 'WIPED OUT'. I NEED TO REMEMBER TO KEEP THINKING OF MY CUP HALF FULL, AND NOT OF THE HALF EMPTY oR 3/4 EMPTY. EASY TO SAY, BUT DIFFICULT TO UPHOLD. AND SO ON THIS FIRST DAY OF MAY, 2015, I WISH ALL OF US A HEALTHY/HEALTHIER MONTH FILLED WITH SUN OUTSIDE AND SUN IN OUR HEARTS, TO BE ABLE TO ACCEPT WHAT WE MUST, AND CARRY ON.
WISHING YOU ALL THE BEST OF A HEALTHY/HEALTHIER MONTH.
FONDLY,
CHW

February, 2015 finally here again to 'talk'

Shalom! I have a new computer and couldn't get into my cancer blog until now. A catch up is what I shall do now.
Thank G. for the moment I show no signs of renewed cancer. But the body and mind, at least mine, shows both physically and mentally, signs of aging, of forgetting, of somehow being going downhill. It is frightening, and one learns to 'go with the flow' and manage as best you can. For me, it is terrifying to see this drop in capabilities , both mentally and physically . But I am taking one step at a time, slowing down, as this I simply must do to keep going. I am reminding myself of all the good that I have and being thankful for each day anew.
to any reader of this blog-'keep your chin up' as it is said. not always easy to do, but to lie down in the mire doesn't seem like a better idea.
Here's wishing to you, and to myself, courage to keep on fighting the battle.
Best wishes until next time.

NOV. 2014 ALONG LIFE'S JOURNEY

HELLO ONCE AGAIN:
IT'S HARD TO BELIEVE THAT THIS MONTH WAS A RELATIVELY HEALTHY ONE. THE ACHES AND PAINS OF AGING ARE THERE, BUT THANK G. SO FAR, THE CANCER IS LYING STILL. ALSO THE IMMUNE SYSTEM, AFFECTED BY THE CHEMO AND RADIATION, IS LYING QUIETLY BY, AND SO I FEEL LUCKY. THE FATIGUE CONTINUES, BUT HARD TO REALLY ASCERTAIN WHAT IS NORMAL FATIGUE FOR MY AGE AND STAGE, AND WHAT IS REALLY THE EFFECT OF MY IMMUNE SYSTEM BEING OFF KEY ETC.

SO AS I AM THANKFUL, I PRAY FOR ANYONE OUT THERE TO FEEL SOME RESPITE FROM WHATEVER AILS YOU. YOU ARE NOT ALONE, AND HAVING SOMEONE OUT THERE WHO CARES HAS HELPED ME A LOT. I HOPE THAT YOU HAVE THAT IN YOUR LIFE.

WISHING US ALL A HEALTHY DEC. AND THE STRENGTH TO COPE WITH WHATEVER COMES OUR WAY.
UNTIL THE NEXT MONTH'S END......

OCT. 31-2014 ALONG MY JOURNEY OF LIFE

HI TO ANYONE READING THIS:

THANK G. BREAST TEST PROVED O'KAY. IT'S HARD TO REMEMBER TO ALWAYS BE THANKFUL FOR WHAT IS, AND NOT THINK OF WHAT ISN'T PERFECT OR RIGHT WITH MY BODY. THERE ALWAYS SEEMS TO BE SOMETHING TO BE CONCERNED ABOUT, BUT IT'S TIME FOR ME TO REALIZE THAT THAT'S HOW IT GOES. BUT HOPEFULLY, EVENTUALLY, SLOWLY, THINGS LOOK UP AGAIN.
AND SO, AS WE TURN TO FALL AND NOVEMBER. I PRAY FOR ALL OF US TO APPRECIATE EACH MOMENT, TO MAKE THE MOST OF WHAT WE HAVE (AND LINGER LESS ON WHAT IS LACKING).

A GOOD MONTH TO ALL OF US.
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

SEPT. 2014 A PERSPECTIVE ON THE PASSAGE OF TIME

SHALOM:

IT HAS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I WROTE HERE. BUSINESS, STRESS, A BREAK FROM THE ROUTINE OF LIFE, A BROKEN COMPUTER ALL HAVE LED TO A BREAK FROM MY BLOG ENTRY.
LIFE HAS ITS WAY OF BRINGING OTHER SMALL INJURIES, PROBLEMS TO THE BODY, LET ALONE THE MIND, AND I FIND MYSELF ALWAYS SAYING TO MYSELF; "AS LONG AS IT IS NOT CANCER, I CAN LIVE WITH THIS". TRUE, BUT NOT EASY TO DO. EACH PAIN AND PROBLEM GIVES US CONCERN. THE REGULAR CHECKUPS FOR CANCER ALL ARE NEGATIVE AT THIS POINT, THANK THE LORD. BUT THERE IS NO GUARANTEE. SO I AM WISHING MYSELF AND ANY READER THE ABILITY TO HANG IN THERE, TO ENJOY THE MOMENT, BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT WE HAVE.
WISHING ALL OF US A GOOD ENTRY INTO THE NEW SCHOOL YEAR, THE NEW JEWISH YEAR, THE LIFE WE HAVE BEFORE US RIGHT NOW. G. BLESS UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

WITH THE PASSAGE OF TIME-JAN. 2014

THERE WAS A PROGRAM CALLED 'THIS WAS THE WEEK THAT WAS'. WELL, THE MONTH OF DEC. WAS THE MONTH THAT WAS. IT WAS A ROUGH PAINFUL MONTH OF THINGS GOING WRONG W. MY BODY-AND NOT CANCER CONNECTED. FIRST, A HEAVY BRONCHITIS, FOLLOWED BY A PINCHED NERVE. AND THEN, AFTER A BRIEF INTERMISSION, I FELL OUT OF MY BED WHILE READING AND NODDING OFF, AND I HAVE PAID DEARLY IN PAIN, INABILITY TO STAND, SIT, BEND, DO. BUT NOW, AS WITH ALL AILMENTS HOPEFULLY, TIME MOVES ON, AND EVENTUALLY, YOU GET OVER THESE PAINS, KNOWING THAT, WHENEVER, WHEREVER, THESE HILLS AND VALLEYS WITH RE-APPA

AUG. 14-2014 WE MEET ONCE AGAIN AFTER SUCH A LONG INTERVAL

SHALOM:
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S SO LONG SINCE I LAST ENTERED. AWAY FOR 3 WEEKS, AND PREPARATIONS AND JET LAG RECOVERY KEPT ME BUSY AND INEFFECTIVE TO SIT AND TO WRITE.
AT THIS POINT, HEALTHWISE, I CAN ONLY SAY THAT THANK G. CANCER FREE AT THE MOMENT. SUFFERING CONSTANTLY, SOME TIMES WITH GREAT DISCOMFORT, OTHER TIMES, SO-SO, FROM MY LOW IMMUNE SYSTEM KNOCKED BY THE CHEMO AND RADIATION, SO THAT I BREAK OUT WITH HIVES, SWOLLEN LIPS, EYES ETC. THANK G. FOR A PILL TO RELIEVE , BUT THE FATIGUE THEN KICKS IN AND I AM EXHAUSTED. BUT, I MUST SAY, THAT I HAVE LEARNED TO LIVE WITH IT. KEEP GOING, EXCEPT WHEN I DO SHOW IT ON MY OUTSIDE APPEARANCE, THEN I STAY WITHIN FOR A BIT OF TIME. PERHAPS, THIS IS ONE IMPORTANT LESSON FOR ME, AMONG OTHERS, THAT NO MATTER WHAT IS WRONG, YOU KEEP GOING. I TRY TO STAY AFLOAT, AND EVEN TO SWIM AND SOAR! THIS IS THANKS TO MY WONDERFUL FRIENDS AND FAMILY WHO CARE, THANKS TO THE CREATOR, THANKS TO MY NOT GIVING UP SHIP AND STAYING DOWN IN THE DUMPS. IT IS NOT EASY. WHEN I READ HOW THE WONDERFUL ACTOR, HUMORIST ROBIN ADAMS WAS SO DEPRESSED TO COMMIT SUICIDE, I AM IN TOTAL SHOCK. HE BROUGHT SO MUCH TO THE WORLD, AND YET SUFFERED SO MUCH THAT HE COMMITTED SUICIDE. IT SHOWS ME HOW MUCH WE MUST WORK AT HELPING OURSELVES, WHEREVER WE CAN GET THE STRENGTH AND HELP WE NEED, FROM PROFESSIONALS AT TIMES, AND FROM OUR SOUL MATES WHEREVER THEY ARE. I PRAY FOR ALL OF US TO KEEP STRONG AND TO LEARN TO WEATHER OUR SITUATION AS BEST WE CAN. G. BLESS! UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, HOPEFULLY ONCE A MONTH AGAIN.