APRIL 22-10 THANK G. FOR EACH STEP

HI!
I REALLY CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I CAN TOLERATE THIS SERIES OF CHEMOTHERAPY (TAXOL) WHEN I SIMPLY COULD NOT MANAGE AT ALL WITH THE FIRST SERIES. I SOMETIMES WONDER IF THEY ARE REALLY GIVING ME ENOUGH OF THE CHEMO IN THE INFUSION. NO NAUSEA MEANS I CAN FUNCTION. FATIGUE I KNOW TO SLOW MYSELF DOWN. SOME STOMACH CRAMPS I CAN TAKE, TINGLING AND FUNNY FEELING IN MY TOES I CAN ENDURE. BUT TO FEEL LIKE A HUMAN BEING-I CAN ALMOST FORGET THAT I HAVE CANCER-EXCEPT THAT THEY NOW SAY THAT THE CHEMO HAS MADE ME SOMEWHAT ANEMIC, AND THEY NEED TO MONITOR THAT.
SO ALL IN ALL, I FEEL VERY LUCKY. MY BIGGEST DISAPPOINTMENT RIGHT NOW IS IN THE REALIZATION THAT I WON'T GET TO TORONTO THIS SUMMER, WHERE I HAVE BEEN GOING FOR THE LAST 13 YEARS NON-STOP, AND OFTEN TWICE A YEAR. THAT'S WHERE ALL MY FRIENDS ARE. HERE I HAVE A BARE MINIMUM OF FRIENDS TO VISIT WITH, MEET ETC. HOWEVER, TO GET OVER THIS IS MY AIM, AND I NEED TO REMEMBER THAT.

AS I WROTE BEFORE, IT'S ONLY BECAUSE I TRULY AM BEING HELD UP BY PEOPLE AROUND ME THAT I AM ON TRACK AND NOT MORE DESPONDENT.
I WISH EVERYONE GOOD HEALTH-ENJOY LIFE WHILE YOU CAN. THAT SEEMS TO BE A VERY IMPORTANT LESSON THAT I AM LEARNING FROM PEOPLE AROUND ME.