I am now onto radiation. It was unbelievable to feel almost normal in the 1 week of no chemo. But psychologically and emotionally, I was and am still down that pit, trying to climb out, or trying to keep afloat in the ocean of worry, despondence, and not quite fitting in all around me.
But one foot goes in front of the other, and I try to enjoy each opportunity that comes my way. Had my first radiation meeting explaining to me briefly what it entails. This 2nd meeting was to paint the exact areas to be radiated. I would fit in well in an Indian tribe right now. By the grace of above, because I had no lymph nodes detected due to my yearly mammogram (DO IT), I will only need 3 1/2 weeks of daily radiation rather than 6 weeks. The challenge is more how to switch my mind from negative to positive hope, and where do I fit in, when until now my whole world has been weekly trips to the hospital and then living its after effects. Now this period will be to cope with the side effects of radiation. Hard to jump to each test, and to be somewhat 'normal' to the outside world.
That's about it in a nutshell for now. I wish good health to all.
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