SHALOM!
IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I LAST WROTE. AT THIS POINT, I STILL HAVE NO ANSWER RE GENETIC FURTHER TESTING. THINGS MOVE VERY SLOWLY IT SEEMS, AND WITH MANY MANY ILL PATIENTS, ONE HAS TO LEARN PATIENCE.
I HAVE BEEN SPENDING MY TIME BEING CONSTANTLY MINDFUL OF WHATEVER GOOD MOMENTS/HOURS/TIMES SPENT COME MY WAY. I AM SO THANKFUL TO BE ALIVE RIGHT NOW, AS I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S COMING NEXT.
SINCE MY RADIATION WHICH FINISHED MID JULY, I HAVE BEEN BATTLING PAINS IN MY ARM, SHOULDER, AREA OF THE SIDE OPERATED ON AND RADIATED ON. IT HAS CAUSED ME LOSS OF POWER TO DO VARIOUS TASKS, BUT MOSTLY PAIN. THAT PLUS THE FATIGUE WHICH JUST WON'T LEAVE ME, KEEP ME FRUSTRATED AND YES, STILL WORRIED. SO TO CONTRAST THAT WORRY AND PAIN, I AM DOUBLY THANKFUL FOR ALL GOOD LITTLE EVENTS. I FIND MYSELF TOO HARD ON MYSELF AND KEEP PUSHING MYSELF. I NEED TO LEARN TO LET IT FLOW, AND NOT EXPECT SO MUCH FROM MYSELF. THE PAMPERING FROM WHATEVER SOURCE COMES MY WAY IS SO APPRECIATED.
I FORTUNATELY FINALLY FOUND 2 DIFFERENT PLACES TO LEARN MORE ABOUT MYSELF, MY BODY, MY FEELINGS. ONE IS FROM A CANCER GROUP TO HELP US ADJUSTING TO IT ALL, AND THE OTHER IS FROM A DOCTOR WHO HELPS US UNDERSTAND THE CONNECTION OF BODY AND SPIRIT AND OUR NEEDS.
WELL, ENOUGH RAMBLING ON FOR TODAY. I WISH ANY OF YOU OUT THERE WHO ARE HURTING OR WORRYING, STRENGTH TO ENJOY WHATEVER YOU CAN. THERE ARE ALWAYS THE UPS AND DOWNS FOR ALL OF US.
AS A NEW JEWISH MONTH BEGINS, AND SHABAT APPROACHES, I WISH YOU ALL A HEALTHY MONTH AND AN ENJOYABLE SHABAT.
UNTIL THE NEXT TIME....
chaya bat sarah bayla
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