Shalom!
It's amazing that now that I have completed my treatments (hopefully forever), I am more and more drawn in to the activities, lectures from cancer groups. Knowing that we are fighting the unknown, I know that cancer could come back at any time, and that for me anyways, I feel the presence of 'the angel of death' beside me, even as I live my life now. It has come too close for comfort; we all face death, but now I feel my mortality constantly, and am therefore so grateful for each and every day. My faith has been very challenged, and I grapple with it within discussions in a cancer group. Whereas usually I am more laid back in revealing my deepest thoughts, in my cancer group, I tend to express myself even more than I would like to do. It is hard to figure this out-am I a cancer patient-yes and no at the moment. Yet, it is nothing I can turn my back on. I see drs. regularly, have my port cleaned and checked monthly, continue my physio therapy bi weekly-it seems that this rotator cuff disease is a direct result of my operation/chem/radiation treatments.
Well, this blog is to let my thoughts hang out -if you are bored, pleased don't read it.
I wish each and every reader/sick person, emotionally challenged person -good health, and the ability to stand more or less independently and continue on.
Until the next time-
thank you.
chaya bat saray bayle and to
kol cholei bnai yisrael
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