OCT. 30-2011 ALONG MY JOURNEY IN LIFE

SHALOM!

AS I WROTE IN MY LAST BLOG, I AM SO ACCEPTING OF ANY OTHER AILMENT AS LONG AS IT IS NOT CANCER. BUT I SURE DO PAY THE PRICE. THE HIVES, WHICH SOUND SO TRIVIAL, ENDED UP IN A MAJOR RAVAGING OF MY BODY, MY LIPS, MY WHOLE BEING. IT WAS FIRST DIAGNOSED AS BUGS IN MY BED-THEREFORE, BOIL EVERY SHEET, TOWEL, CLOTHING ETC. MAKE PESACH TOTAL IN YOUR BED. DONE. -DIDN'T WORK. LEFT MY BED FOR A MONTH-WHEREVER I SLEPT, I WAS AWAKENED COVERED WITH HIVES FROM SCALP TO FEET. MY STOMACH WAS FINALLY LIKE A PATCH OF KALANIYOT. I COULD NOT WEAR UNDERWEAR PLUS...

AFTER ONE HISTAMINE, AND A STRONGER ONE, AND MANY DR. VISITS, I FINALLY ENDED UP IN 'TEREM' EMERGENCY, FOR EVEN A STRONGER HISTAMINE. LAST STOP WAS A ONE DAY TRIP TO A MAJOR ISRAELI HOSPITAL FOR FULL BODY TESTING FROM VARIOUS DRS., BLOOD WORK ETC. THANKS TO MY SON. IT SEEMS THAT ALTHO' I KNOW THAT I HAVE 'CHRONIC CUTICARIA'-THAT IS, I BREAK OUT EVERY FEW YEARS IN HIVES, WITH NO WAY TO KNOW WHAT IT'S FROM, THIS WAS A MAJOR ATTACK-IT SEEMS THAT MY IMMUNE SYSTEM (PROBABLY FROM THE CANCER TREATMENTS) WAS VERY LOW, AND THAT MY BODY WAS ATTACKING ITS OWN CELLS. SO I AM NOW ON HIGH STEROIDS FOR A FEW WEEKS. THANK G. TO FIND A DR. WHO KNOWS WHAT HE/SHE IS DOING. MORE TEST ARE YET TO COME, BUT I AM FINALLY SOMEWHAT HUMAN AFTER AT LEAST 3 STRAIGHT MONTHS OF 'TORTURE'.

I MUST LEARN TO PAY MORE ATTENTION TO ALL AILMENTS, ALTH' I DID. MY REGULAR DR. JUST POO-POOED IT EXCEPT TO GIVE ME A PILL AND SCARE ME THAT I HAD BUGS CRAWLING ABOUT ON ME AND WAS BITTEN. CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT FEELING?

I AM SLOWLY LEARNING TO ACCEPT MORE AND MORE THAT LIFE HAS ITS CONSTANT CONSTANT UPS AND DOWNS IN PHYSICAL HAPPENINGS, IN PERSONAL HAPPENINGS, IN LIFE ITSELF. I REALIZE MORE AND MORE WHEN I FEEL SO WEAK THAT NO WONDER WE ALL DIE AT SOME POINT-WE WEAR OUT. BUT EACH DAY I THANK G. FOR BEING ALIVE TODAY, AND TRY TO ENJOY AND LIVE WELL WHATEVER TIME I HAVE. SIMPLY SAID-A CHALLENGE TO DO.

TWICE IN THE PAST FEW DAYS I HAVE BEEN TOLD THAT I AM NOW 'OLD'. I FOUND IT SHOCKING. I KNOW THAT I AM OF GOOD AGE-74, BUT OLD? I WANT TO LIVE AND LIVE AND SEE MORE GRANDCHILDREN GET MARRIED, GET BAR MITZVAED, ETC. SO SINCE I CAN'T TOTALLY CONTROL ANY OF THIS, I STRIVE TO EAT HEALTHY, TO EXERCISE, TO BREATHE, TO SMILE, TO LIVE, TO LEARN.
I SEND OUT MY SINCERE WISHES TO ANY READER FOR GOOD HEALTH AND A GOOD PAYING OF ATTENTION TO YOUR OWN NEEDS.

AS NOVEMBER IS ALMOST HERE, LET'S HOPE FOR GOOD THINGS.