THANK G. FOR EACH POSITIVE MOMENT-FEB. 4, 2010

Hello once again:

After several days of pain, using SEDURAL to ease the situation, finally received confirmation of an infection. My advice to anyone having the symptoms, don't wait for a full test to come back over several days, get the Sedural and the antibiotics and start. The reason I didn't do that, was that unless I was really sure I had an infection, I didn't want to start antibiotics for nothing. For another time, I will not wait. To be so uncomfortable, was far from acceptable. We learn from others and from experience.



Finally once again, I am able to go out to sit and dine with friends, family, altho' the nausea persists. But I feel more like myself. Of course, now I mentally prepare to start chemo #3 and its effects next week again. Highlights for me were and are: meeting friends, sharing special happenings-bat mitzva, wedding, sharing ideas. It means so much when you are having a difficult time to pass the time with others. I am thankful for calls, e mails, etc.



Aside from the infection, I seem to have a problem with blood in my nostrils. And so, again, I will go to a Dr. to investigate that. That's an outing! Not what I would prefer, but better than continuing to ponder its reasons and how to deal with it.



Wish you all better things to read on blogs. As my doctor says,

Chin up! I also think-this too shall pass, and the next challenge will come!

Bye for now.

p.s. How could I forget? Shows you that when you don't feel well, you forget about other items on the cancer journey.
On Mon. as I wrote you last week, I went back to my new lovely sheitl/wig lady. Had my head totally shaved in half a second. and cried for a split moment -it reminded me of the Auschwitz people-stopped crying, thinking:
"I'm so glad that my mother doesn't have to see me like this." And I must say that it is such a relief-no hairs falling in my clothes, in my pajamas, in my sink, into everywhere. I am so so relieved!! It will grow again, and I cover it anyways. I bought a beautiful new wig especially coated on the inside for a bare skull to not hurt, and it looks lovely if I say so myself. This week I have worn pretty scarves altho' not so pretty on me. It makes the cancer obvious. But now I will also be able to wear a wig and look normal. Well, now you are up to date.

Checked out my bloody nose-could be from the chemo-so another antibiotic creme for the nose. don't say that life is not interesting. Chicken that I am, I wouldn't let the Dr. burn inside my nose-I opted for the cream only. Hope it works.
Bye once again.