SHALOM!
AS I WROTE LAST TIME, WHAT A DIFFERENCE A DAY MAKES! PERHAPS THAT IS WHY WE CONSTANTLY SAY; 'THANK G." FOR EVERY MOMENT OF EVERY DAY.
MY VISIT TO 'HALLA' CENTRE LEFT ME TOTALLY SHELL SHOCKED! THE DR., WHO WAS SIMPLY EXCELLENT AND CARING, FOUND NOT THE ONE 'GUSH' AS WAS FOUND 3 WEEKS AGO, BUT 3 MASSES ON THE SAME SIDE THAT WAS OPERATED ON, AND THUS I FOUND MYSELF HAVING ON THE SPOT, 3 DIFFERENT BIOPSIES. TRYING VERY HARD NOT TO CRY, I JUST HELD ON TO MYSELF, AND WEATHERED IT. I THINK I HAD 3 MAMMOGRAMS AND ULTRA SOUNDS OVER AND OVER, AND NOW I MUST DO A BIOPSY ON THE LEFT SIDE. I TOLD HIM THAT I AM ALMOST READY TO JUST HAVE A MASECTOMY. BUT THAT IS JUST TALK FOR NOW. I MUST AWAIT THE RESULTS-GO ELSEWHERE TO DO THIS 4TH BIOPSY.
SO IF OUT THERE CAN IDENTIFY WITH ME, THE FEAR, THE PANIC, THE FACING OF DEATH ALL SOUND OUT LOUD AND CLEAR. BUT ON THE OTHER HAND, ONE KEEPS ON LIVING, DOING, HOPING, AND PUSHING IT ALL ASIDE. SURELY IT WILL ALL BE JUST SOME FIBRE GROWTH AND NOTHING MORE.
AND AM I DOING ANYTHING TO PREPARE FOR THE WORST? SIMPLY NO. I USE ALL MY ENERGY TO CONTINUE TEACHING PART-TIME, EXERCISING, WATCHING MY HEALTHY HABITS, FINDING PLEASURE IN READING, SEEING FRIENDS, EATING OUT, AND GETTING MORE REST, WHICH I TRULY LACK. THAT TAKES ALL MY ENERGY.
AND SO, TODAY, AS ON ALL DAYS, I WISH YOU AND ME, GOOD PROGRESS, GOOD RESULTS, HOPE AND OPTIMISM, THAT WE WILL LIVE AND SURVIVE AND ENDURE AND BE ABLE TO COPE WITH WHAT IS ON OUR LIFE PLAN.
I SEND YOU AND ME WARM HUGS AND WISHES.
UNTIL THE NEXT TIME.....
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