Somehow, the extreme nausea and fatigue really has me almost flat still. It is hard to enjoy much, although I am being served excellent food, lovely company, but I feel like a washed out rag. However, 'this too shall pass'. I know to be thankful that it is 'only breast cancer', and that I am and older woman without young children. I am thankful, but somewhat down. I am truly thankful for all those who come to sleep here, to invite me, etc. I wish I was better company.
Since hairs are appearing everywhere, tomorrow, I will take it all off. I had already prepared some head scarves. Will let you know how I deal with it all.
HAVE A GOOD DAY! As my doctor so casually says, 'CHIN UP!'
I bet you are finding some inner resources you never new you had. Being your own advocate is hard but,as you discovered, important - empowering on some level too though.... and you are witnessing the goodness in people. I suspect you have always been a giver, but it is a gift also to let people give to you for a change. Now you are in the middle of a long road, but you WILL get through this. Give yourself some little milestones to look forward to.
ReplyDeleteHere it is cold and grey. When the crocuses come up in a few months as the ground warms up, I will think of you blooming again also. Sending love and good thoughts. xox DF